Stardust

LIMA BELAS - Reza

52 Reasons Why I Love You

1. You can make me smile for no reason
2. You always make me laugh
3. You always come up with crazy things to do
4. You are always be my shoulder to cry on
5. You can make decision when I can't
6. You're not afraid to be silly around me
7. You always open the Indomaret door for me:)
8. You make me feel safe
9. You hold my hand when we're walking
10. You listen to my stupid stories
11. You'll buy me seblak and ice cream even at 11pm
12. You are not afraid of what others think about us
13. Your smell so good
14. You hold me when I laugh or cry
15. You stare at my eyes every single day
16. You accept me for me
17. You always kiss my forehead
18. You hold me when you are sleeping:)
19. You take time to call me just to say "hallo Naya cantik"
20. You know what all of my favorite things are
21. You are kind to my friends
22. You'll eat the things I don't like on my plate
23. You are always optimistic
24. You still like to cuddle
25. I love you because you never walk in front of me
26. You let me lay on your shoulder when you're drive
27. You buy me Kiranti when I'm on period :p
28. You call me "Nyonya Novreza"
29. You say sorry even you know it's my fault
30. You are got my back no matter what
31. I love the way you hold me and look at me
32. You always know when I'm not ok.
33. You're my best, best, bestfriend:)
34. Your eyes smile when you laugh hard
35. You're always saving funny picture on your phone to show me later because you want me to laugh too.
36. I love you because your dreams are my dreams
37. You buy me Indomilk melon and Lays without I ask
38. You're my other half
39. You believe in me
40. You never tell me that you love me, but you show and prove it.
41. You are everything I never knew I needed
42. I love that you make my fears melt away
43. I love that we do "Batu gunting kertas" or truth or dare games
44. You always keep your promise
45. You rub my feet when I feel tired
46. You always ask for my opinion before making big decisions.
47. You buy me Sari Roti (And we argue for it if u remember haha)
48. You skip your class just to meet me and say that you miss me
49. You borrow my yellow pen just to meet me before break time school
50. You are a gentleman.
51. You're never give up on me
52. And the last but not least, I love you because you're you.

Reza memasukkan tumpukan kartu remi yang sengaja diberi kalimat-kalimat bertulis tangan pada sisi depannya itu ke tempat semula. Kotak coklat yang sejak ia masih di sekolah tadi belum sempat ia lihat isinya, akhirnya ia buka sore ini tidak ditutupnya kembali.

Anak lelaki itu menyandarkan punggungnya dengan tembok. Setengah meter dari tempat ia meletakkan sepatu Vans nya. Pikirannya begitu kalut dan isi kepalanya seperti berputar kesana kemari. Ponsel dan tas sekolah anak lelaki itu sudah teronggok tak terurus di samping kasur dan ada tiga pesan dari Sekar yang belum sempat ia baca isinya. Tak jauh dari tas warna hitamnya, kemeja seragam berlengan pendek dan dasi yang tadi ia pakai sudah berserakan di atas kasur.

Reza membiarkan punggungnya yang tidak tertutup apa-apa bersentuhan dengan tembok dengan cat warna hitam pekat yang mewarnai kamarnya. Nafasnya saling memburu, tangannya terus mengepal dan bahunya naik turun mengatur napas. Seperti ia baru saja berlari sejauh ratusan kilo meter padahal nyatanya yang dilakukan Reza sejak pulang sekolah adalah diam di tempatnya duduk sampai sekarang.

"Goblok," bisiknya parau entah bicara kepada siapa. Ia lalu mendongakkan kepala sampai ia bisa melihat langit-langit kamar sebelum matanya terpejam erat disusul tangannya yang mengusap rambut ke belakang dengan kasar. "Goblok, goblok, goblok!"