Insecurities, and then the bad boy

Chapter 17- Dinner Disaster

Winter's P.O.V-

Can I just drop dead right here, right now?

Mason turns around and snickers at me looking me up and down. I don't think I'm pretty and I'm only wearing a t-shirt and white shorts so I'm not really showing anything accept my legs.

I walk over and sit down in my seat.
I look up and see Jason glaring at Mason as Mason whispers in my ear.

Mason: "Hey babe, you look good." I shutter as he whispers that as Jason glares harder at him.

Why does Jason care? He's the one that told Mason we weren't friends. God he's confusing.

While we eat everyone is talking and having fun accept me and Jason. I ate 2 bites of my food since Jason looked at me and mouthed 'eat your food', I really didn't want him coming over here and forcing me to eat that's why I took two bites.

We were halfway through dinner and I feel a hand on my lower back. It starts going lower and lower. I turn to see Mason smirking at me. I slap his hand away and focus on my hands again. I've playing with them the whole dinner.
Mason puts his hand on my back again and I stand up quickly.

Winter: "Excuse me I-I'm going to th-the bathroom."

Sophia: "Wait dear, you know the rules now. Mason she needs someone to escort her to the bathroom and wait because well... you guys know right?" They all nod, I'm guessing because I'm "depressed" and need to be "watched" because "who knows what I'll do when not watched" and crap like that.

Jason: "Mom I can do it-"

Mason: "Naw I'll escort her Sophia." He smiled at Sophia sweetly and she smiled back. Jason stared hard at Mason as we walk to the bathroom

The reason I have to have someone with me (besides my bathroom since there is nothing "dangerous" in it) is because if I try to hurt myself again someone can step in and help me. I can't lock any of the doors (I know I did earlier but oh well) and I have to talk to them while I'm freaking pissing. Like what?! I get it, they don't want me to hurt myself but I don't want to talk to someone while I'm pissing. Who would want that? Not me anyways.

I walk in the bathroom and Mason follows me in. He locks the door behind us.

Winter: "Wh-what are you doing? You d-don't have to come in, just talk to me through the door." He smirks and eyes my lips. "N-no Mason! Please." I say and he just keeps eyeing my lips.

Mason: "The only thing you'll ever be good at is a quick kiss. Or more." He winks at me. Then he whispers in my ear. "Don't you dare disappoint me or else."

Winter: "B-but I want m-my first kiss to be with s-someone I like." He chuckles.

Mason: "Yes but no one accept me will ever take you."

Winter: "Your probably right." I say this time not stuttering. A tear slides down my face as he attaches his lips to mine.

I try to push him away but he grabs my hands and forces them away from me. His lips are slimy and his breath smells like cigars. Gross. I've always hated smoking. I try to force my face away but with his other hand he grabs my face and keeps kissing me. I try to yell but it barely comes out. He is about to use his tongue but we hear a hard knock on the door. Mason takes a step back and I quickly rush to the door.

Jason: "Hey Winter are you alright? Where's Mason?" I open the door and he takes a step back. He looks at my face which has tears streaming down. "Oh my god Winter are you ok? What happened-" and then Mason comes out of the bathroom while smirking at me. Jason's eyes widen and I run for it. As I run to my room I hear Jason say one last thing. "You mother effer! What did you do to her!?!" He yells.

When I get in my room I wipe the tears off and start punching my pillow. I take my sharpest pencil and take it into my bathroom. I start making cuts on my arm with the pencil. It takes awhile but it works. Each cut I think of something I did wrong or something that's wrong with me.

1.) I cry to much
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5.) No one accept Mason will ever want me
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7.) I'm a disgrace to my own mother

I am about to do number 8 when I hear a knock on my door. I quickly rush to my bed and cover my arms and the pencil with my blanket.

Winter: "I don't have a choice so come in!" Lilly walks in holding a picture. "Oh, hi Lilly. How are you?"

Lilly: "I'm good, I made a picture for you." She hands the picture to me and wow she's a good artist.

Lilly: "Its you and Jason, he has his arms around you and your both smiling. I even got your green eyes in there see!" She points to my eyes in the picture.

Winter: "Wow Lilly, it's amazing. Your a great artist but why didn't you do me and you?" She giggles and then sits down next to me kicking her dangling feet.

Lilly: "Because you two would make a cute couple!" I blush super hard as she giggles again.

Winter: "Wha-what?" She smirks at me and leaves. I put the picture on the wall with some tape, hopefully they won't mind. I wonder why she put glasses on him. Maybe he wears contacts?

I go into the bathroom and wash my arms off since there is some blood dripping. I also wash my mouth out because I wanted all of Masons lip cooties off of me.
Yes I said cooties don't judge me.

Yuck. I'm disgusting.

Is all I could think about. I should have tried harder to get him off. I thought I was doing my hardest but then that wouldn't have happened, right?

I get into bed without putting my pjs on and sleep overcomes me immediately.

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