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Insecurity.
Is all I feel emotionally.
Pain, self harm.
Is all I feel physically.
Until Jason Diaz the typical bad boy comes along to show me how good life can be.
But will he succeed?
Or will people keep hurt me?
Over and over...
I step out of the car after my mom and walk up the stairs to the front door. My mom tells me to smile but I don't. Someone opens the door and gives us hugs.
Wally: "Hi Ms.Anderson! And you must be Winter, please both of you come in." I step in and look around the room.
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Winter: "It's beautiful." I say in my quiet voice that I always use.
Wally: "I'm sorry what dear?"
Mom: "She said it's beautiful." My mom smiles at him.
Wally: "Well there are three tables but we're only using two. The kids are over there sitting at their table. Run along and have fun dear." I nod at him and walk over looking at the ground. As I sit down I know whoever the three people are their eyes are glued to me.
Unknown: "Hi babe." I look up to a smirk on his face. "I told you I would see you soon." Ugh, Mason. Of course he's here.
I look over to the other two people at the table. Jason and a girl named Maria. Maria is really good at art. My dad and brother always said I was a great artist but my mom didn't think so. Plus after the accident she took away my art supplies. All I have now is a few pencils for school.
Maria is not that popular but she's not a weirdo/outcast like me. She used to be kind of my friend in first grade.
After looking me over Jason stares into my eyes for a second which is weird but he then immediately starts texting or something on his phone.
I look down and then Mason pulls my chin up.
Mason: "Listen babe I hope you say yes to me because I don't like when people say no." He let's go and I look down again.
When the food comes out I don't eat anything. I can't gain anything because then my mom will comment on my size. I'm 5'6 so I'm not short but I have no idea how much I weigh. The average weight is about 114-150 for a female who is 5'6, but that's not true for all, depending on your body size the other average is 155 to 185.
When the other people at my table we're done and so I didn't take a bite they all stared at me, but I don't care.
Mason: "Are you going to eat that chicken?" I shake my head and shove the whole plate over to him.
Winter: "You can have it all." I stand up and go to Wally.
Winter: "Where is the bathroom?" He tells me directions and I go to the bathroom. When I come out Jason is waiting for me.
I start to walk away but he tells me to stop so I do.
