Moonlit Futures

Lexi POV

5 Days Later

Sitting in the chair I began to play with the hem of my shirt anxiously as Rachel watched me. 

"Lexi, this is our second session and if you can't answer even my basic questions I don't think this will even work." She told me sternly leveling her gaze at me. Looking down I started to rub my hands over my thighs for a few minutes. Thinking back to her prodding questions I tried to find the words to answer but each time I remained silent. Going back to fiddling with my hem I started to feel the emotions building up until the dam burst and I started to cry. Hiding my face in my hands I cried for a few minutes before starting to snuff it back. Sitting in the silence now permeated by my snuffles every few minutes I began to speak.

"Lonely. Forgotten. Used."

"What are those Lexi?"

"The answers to your question." Hearing her huff out a sigh of annoyance I smirked a bit at her.

"What question Lexi. I've asked you several now." Smirking even broader I made her sit in silence for another minute before elaborating.

"That's how I felt when Chris and I walked to meet Greg. He didn't talk to me the entire walk and the he was so willing to hand me over. Same emotions from when Chris sent me away. He and I talked that through though and I think we are on some sort of path to fixing that. I don't know. I don't trust him fully yet. He knows that too before you ask." I told Rachel when she bolted up right at that comment. Relaxing a bit she settled back into her chair while I moved my feet to sit criss cross in the chair. Tracing the black striped pattern on my blue leggings I was lulled once in again into a silence before Rachel interrupted it. 

"Why won't you talk to Alpha Xavier like you did Alpha Chris? Does he need to wait a couple of years too?"

Giving her a withering look I watched her shift slightly before smirking slightly to myself. Thinking on her question I tried to articulate my thoughts.

"I don't think he needs to wait but I think his betrayl will be harder to get over. He was willing to blame me for something clearly not my fault like Chris did but he handed me over to that psycho freak. After he knew everything and judged Chris like he did. I don't know. That betrayal hit deeper. Chris's I guess I understood. He just lost his mom and I couldn't save her and he lost her because of me. Xavier, just pathetic." Scowling in disgust I started to pick at the leggings before noticing a hole in my grey tshirt. Focusing on that I started to pick at that while Rachel jotted down notes. 

"So you lost respect for Alpha Xavier?" Looking up at her I threw that thought around in my mind before carefully answering her.

"I guess I did," looking past her I started to think on that a bit before she started asking more questions.

"He was just protecting him mate though like Chris was protecting and worried about his mother. How is that so different?" Staring off behind Rachel I sat quietly wishing she'd just let me go, instead of talking about my trust issues and the time with Greg. Hearing her sigh and stand I let out  a quick sigh of relief before I heard the door behind me open and a second set of footsteps enter into the room. Staring ahead I forced myself not to recoil as Xavier's smell hit me. My breathing became unsteady and I felt my hands tense up and clench. My finger nails dug into my palm as he took a seat near me. Watching Rachel sit down I scowled at her and looked down away from Xavier.

"Lexi, are there things you want to say to Xavier?"

"No." I spat out. Clenching and unclenching my fists I tried to get a hold on my breathing. Steadying it I could feel myself getting angry at the trick Rachel had pulled. Feeling a hand reach out and pat my knee I whiled to face Xavier and snarled at him. Seeing his wolf rise to the surface and snarl back had my wolf clawing to be let out. Feeling my snout starting to elongate I stood quickly and walked to the corner of the room. Going to the farthest point from Xavier had me taking in deep gulps of air to calm my volatile wolf. Hearing Xavier whisper harshly to Rachel and then slam out of the room had my wolf rearing to the surface again but after a few minutes I calmed the urge. Turning to face Rachel with murderous eyes I watched her blink startled at my expression.

"Lexi, you agreed to try." She prodded gently. Letting out a snorting laugh I began to pace.

"Try Rachel. That's the key word. Not let you ambush me on our second session with more than I can handle. That was stupid. I should have had warning. You can take your try and shove it! If all your going to do is push me before I'm ready then this won't work."

"Lexi,..."

"Save it Rachel." I cut her off. "I'm going back to my room. When I'm ready I'll be back." I said stalking towards the door. Her silent voice stopped me in my tracks.

"Lexi, Xavier thinks you need  to be kept to the hospital wing to protect the other wolves." Feeling my heart drop to my feet I sank to the ground. Hearing Rachel walking towards me I let out a soft growl stopping her.

"Lexi I'm sorry. I told him you wouldn't be danger and could go back to Chris's room but he was adamant."

"Prick." I mumbled under my breath. Looking at Rachel I thought about my options. Sitting in silence I finally broke it.

"Rachel, can you go find Chris and let him know I'll be staying her if he could pack a bag for me?"

"Sure Lexi. I'll go now."

"Thanks Rachel." Waiting until I couldn't hear her feet any longer, I jumped up and bolted out of the room.