There She Goes (Book 2)

45. "I don't think I can live without her."

Mandy’s POV

“My perspective doesn’t need to be adjusted Tal.” I responded.

He laughed. “Yeah okay.”

I stood up and put the lid on the box of Brian’s records and proceeded to set them by the door.

He sat on the counter and started flipping through a magazine that Brian had gotten in the mail, this morning.

“Tal, seriously don’t you have anything better to do?” I asked annoyed.

He put the magazine down and looked at me. “I am here for you today. There is nothing else I would rather be doing than helping you through whatever the hell you are going through. I am your best friend and that’s what best friends are for.”

I gave in. There was really no use in arguing with him. “I want to be with Carey, that’s all I have ever wanted.”

“Are you sure? I mean 150% sure? Because this is it, I don’t think that Brian or Carey have any more fight left in them.” He said sincerely.

“Do you remember the day I married Carey?” He nodded and I continued. “I have never been happier and that night when I was in his arms, I felt safe, I felt like no one could hurt me, but then when I danced with Brian I got confused, I knew I had to let him go, but there was just something in my heart that made me question it.”

“And now?” He questioned.

“Now, I don’t have that feeling, I let him go today and I don’t regret it, this past weekend with Carey made me realize that I have so much to experience with him, in 10 years I see myself with him. I see myself having kids, building a life with him and for once I see myself completely happy and..” I stopped, not completely sure if I wanted to talk about her because it still hurt too much.

“And?” Tal asked.

“In my dreams I see Alisha, and she…she’s happy for me. It’s like she is the one that led me back to Carey. She always knew where my true happiness lied and it was never here in LA.”

He sighed. “But can you forgive him for everything he did? I mean he did practically force marriage on you?”

“I forgave him for that a long time ago. And I have forgiven Brian for much worse, you know that better than anyone.”

He nodded in agreement. “So what conclusion have we come to?”

“I think I am moving to Arizona.” He jumped off the counter.

“What?! Your life is here. What about us? What about Robin?” He exclaimed.

“I need to get away from all of this and be happy. I think I deserve that much. I can’t do any of that here because this is Brian’s life. Arizona will be a good change for me and you know you guys can all visit anytime. I decided to keep the house in Maryland, we can spend Christmas together there. Robin will be fine. I know that Joel will be more than happy to let her spend weekends and vacations in Arizona with me.”

He looked shocked. “Wow. You’ve really thought this through.”

I smiled. “I really have. Carey is the one.”

He gave me a hug. “When will you be leaving?”

“Probably within the next week. Carey will be here the day after tomorrow to help me pack some of my things. I am keeping the house. I imagine Brian will head back to the condo. I called Larry to meet in an hour about who is going to be running the merch booth because Val leaves tomorrow, and it won’t be my place anymore.”