Amyplier

Chapter Eighty One.

Amy's Point of View:

     Drained can't properly describe what I am feeling right now. Yesterday after I got my results back I sobbed so much I feel like I couldn't anymore. I feel like I am not ready to be a mom and sure I can't speak for Mark but I feel like he would say the same. I feel so guilty thinking these thoughts when he is laying soundly beside me, Lovingly wrapping his arm around my waist and his head nuzzled into the back of my neck. How am I supposed to tell him? I open my eyes and take a deep breath before moving around, Trying to wake him up. I stop and hear his breathing get heavier before moving myself around to face him, Seeing his eyes open as I do so. I watch as he smiles down at me, Carefully moving a piece of hair out of my face "Morning" He whispers, Connecting his lips to the tip of my nose. I stare for a moment before giving him a weak smile and closing my eyes once again, I'm not ready for this day.

     Waking up this time is different the second go round, Mark is no longer laying beside me. I sigh as I roll to my back and stare up at the ceiling. I wonder how many interesting things I can make out of this ceiling before going downstairs? Stifling a laugh at my own thoughts, I set myself up and run a hand through my tangle of hair. My stomach still feels queazy and sick when I swing my legs over the edge of the bed, Making me move slower than I already was before. Sighing I slowly pad across the wooden floor and open my door. The air compared to my room is hot and makes me feel tight. I take each step one at a time, Careful not to get too out of breath or have to see last nights chips and candy again. Taking the last step onto the tile makes me feel like some kind of superstar, Which is stupid considering I just went down a flight of stairs. As I approach the kitchen the smell of the freshly made pancakes causes vile to raise in the back of my throat, Making me pause and hold onto my stomach. I stand for a moment before Kathryn sees me "Hey amy" She smiles brightly "I made you breakfast" She smiles again and I give her a promising smile before seeing her walk off and over to that smell. Todays going to be a challenge.

     I couldn't do it. i couldn't make it through breakfast without throwing up that one bite of pancake I ate.Mark is beginning to seem concerned with my lack of food and gave me a strange look as I got up. I didn't really notice Kathryn or Ethan's because of how much I was in a rush to get upstairs to my phone.  After excusing myself from the table, I ran up and changed clothes already assuming Eve would allow me over if I showed up. I feel like a chicken with it's head cut off today and I'm assuming it's only going to get worse from this point on. Scrambling to get my hair up into a hat, I text Eve and tell her I'm about to leave to come over. I hope with everything I have left of me that she has nothing going on today and she can just be my best friend and talk to me. I set my phone on my night stand before walking over to my mirror and looking at myself. Pulling my shirt up slightly, I turn myself to the side and look at my flat tummy. How could this be happening. Again, I can't shift my eyes away as I pat it and make it go out more as I try to make some kind of bump out of my skin. The intense vibrate from my phone shakes my thoughts causing me to drop my shirt and quickly pad over to where my phone lays, Pressing the home button and reading Eves message.

Evie: Come over anytime you need, Whether i'm free or not:) I sent Tyler off so it's just Blair and I awaiting you! 

     Eve's place would be the perfect place to hide out if only it didn't have so many stairs to get up to her apartment. Taking the last set, I place my hands on my hips and stare to the floor so I can't see how many I have more to go. I feel happier than I should when I reach the landing, Tapping on Eve's door and hearing her footsteps moments after. I lean against the wall and try to get my breath back when I hear the lock switch and her happy face appear "Hello sweets" She smiles, Opening the door wider to allow my in. I walk through and shut the door behind me "Hello" I give a weak smile as I walk across her living room and plop into her squishy chair. She gets Blair out of her bouncer before holding her tightly " How are you feeling?" She pushes slightly "That was some pretty hefty news to take in" I watch as she tightens her face before letting it go back to normal and smiling down at Blair. I sigh before responding "I'm fine" I shrug "Still can't eat anything" I look to her as my face falls, It's annoying not to be able to smell or eat food and i know Eve feels my pain. I watch as she places Blair back into her bouncer "I have a smoothy that will make you full and won't make you puke" She smiles as she stands "How are you going to tell Mark?" She asks, Turing on the tap and running her hands under. I tilt my head to the side and give her side eye before looking back to Blair, Seeing as she makes me happy. The tap turns off and Eve walks around the kitchen "Not the time, gotcha" She stifles a laugh, Making me smile "Stay here for the night and I'll text Mark with an excuse, You need a night to yourself" I look over and smile at her "Close your eyes while I make this, It'll be done in a few" Her sing song voice turns soft as I close my tired eyed, Knowing I'll be out within seconds. 

Short and shitty chapter because today was a bad day and girls at my school are mean:) I'm sorry for the abrupt ending and bad all in all chapter but tomorrow will hopefully be better. I loved and was very happy with the response the last chapter go so thank you. I hope you enjoyed this read. xxParks