Confession ng Isang Single

Luke smith side chapter

"I'll kiss you dear okay?"

Said by the girl that i just met few hours ago... I just nod on what she wanted... So she just started kissing me... A damp on my lips and the memory of her struck me... So i stopped her... I cannot handle any more of it,,i thought going into this kind of haven might help me to heal... Weeks had passed and i am still drowning in my sadness... The girl i loved told me that i am selfish, and a total loser in terms of love.. In which is i find it true... I have never forgive my birth mom and i try to put everyone else in it... And i start hurting them all... Including my dad... I am a shit.. I am a big shit...

"I'm going home" and left the money on the table...

I went to my car and try to drive home... minutes passed and i arrived back

My quiet and dead home...

As i enter the place, hachicko happily wiggle her tail... i smile at her and pat her on her head.. Hachicko is a bubbly dog.. She has a resemblance with echicko..

"Hey hachicko, are you doing alright? You Suddenly became big... Your such a nice dog... How i miss the one who gave you" i whisper to hachicko.. I left her and went straight to my room..

I dont know what makes her feel mad at me.. She just suddenly complain and everything went crazy... My heart was about to explode when she say hurtful things to me, how can a woman make me feel so weak, make me feel so sad make me feel so mad... I love her that it hurts..

I went to my chair and seated peacefully, i close my eyes and at least try to forget...

"I look like a shit"- me

"Yes you, do"

It startled me when i saw my dad standing near my door...

I just smile at him,... "i am a shit man, you shouldnt be talking to me"

"Son, you are the only thing i have, and i am sure your mom is not please to see you like this"

"How come mom would care about me? She left me, she left you...remember?"

My dad sat silently on my bed... "Son, i guess it is about time that you at least make your heart feel at ease, forgive your mom already"

"I am trying my hardest to do so... When i am about to forget it things just suddenly went crazy, and again i am a mess"- me

"Is it about girls?" Dad mockingly told me

"Yes, another woman just suddenly lift me up and turn me down in a second, i thought i am starting to regain myself but i guess all hell got loose.. And the next thing i knew, i am broken, its funny when i am trying to change her, and i am the one who is changed... I thought she could help me, but i was wrong it is another wasted turn.. And now i dont know how to forget, i dont know how to recover, shit is this thing called love" me

"Son, people always pass in this kind of situation, son you are not alone i am here"

I looked at my dad...how could he say such words when he supposed to be leaving me behind my shadows...

"I am so sorry dad, instead of helping you, i left you all alone, i escaped and didnt helped you, but look where you are, you are telling me you are always there when in fact i left you when you needed me the most"

"Because you are my son, and you are the only thing i got" my dad smile at me

"Anyway nice dog" he said and left me...

My dad is the only one i got....

I dont want to get hurt again, and the only path i knew is to prevent myself from drawing closer to these things...

I should forget about her and start anew,,,