Janiel Oneshots (Discontinued...Again)

49. Marriage Problems? (Fluff)

(Joey's POV)

I'm a bridesman (yes I said bridesman, deal with it!) in my sister Nicole's wedding, I'm so happy for her. She looks so in love with Sean, the look she gives him matches the same look I give Daniel. Speaking of Daniel, he's in the third row watching the ceremony, a smile on his face. Looking back and forth between him and the newlyweds, I feel sadness bubbling inside me. I know I said I'm happy for my sister and I am! It's just, I want to experience this moment with Daniel, I want to experience a marriage ceremony with Daniel. But he keeps saying that he wants to wait until we're ready to have kids, which I agreed to, but seeing how happy and in love my sister is today, it makes me sad that Daniel doesn't have the same mindset. He's probably looking at my sister and her fiance with just a smile, no meaning behind it.

At the reception, Daniel tried to talk to me but I just ignored him. Until we were taking wedding photos and I smiled happily as Daniel kissed right below my eye, because who wouldn't smile when someone you love kisses you? Right after though, I walked away and went dancing with my family, leaving Daniel confused. Nicole sensed my change in demeanor but I told her it was nothing, I was not going to be the one who ruined her special day with my drama. I felt a tap on my shoulder as a slow song plays, it was Daniel. "Can I have this dance, my prince?" I smiled widely "why of course you may!" Taking my hand, I wrap my other arm around Daniel's waist as we slow dance, my head resting against his shoulder. "What's going on in that mind of yours Joey?" He whispers in my ear "nothing Daniel, don't worry about it."

Once Nicole went off with her husband to wherever they're going for their honeymoon, Daniel drove us back to the hotel. I sat in the car silent, my hand in Daniel's but I didn't speak to him or even look at him. I felt ashamed, unloved. Am I going to wait years before Daniel and I say 'I do'? I don't want to wait ten years or even five more. I know that sounds kind of selfish, but I love Daniel with my whole being, I want to be with him forever. Sure I don't need a wedding ring to prove it but I want the confirmation that Daniel will be only mine. "Joey are you sure there's nothing wrong?" I hum, looking out the window "Joey don't shut me out, talk to me please" "it's nothing Daniel just leave it!" I didn't mean to snap at him, I never do, I just don't want to ruin this happy day.

Laying on the bed, I stare up at the ceiling, silent tears running down my face. Daniel is taking a shower so I get to freely let out my emotions until he's done. I look at the promise ring that is resting on my finger, smiling sadly. Will an engagement ring ever be on my finger? Not until Daniel is one hundred and fifty percent sure he wants to be with me for the rest of his life I guess. The shower cuts off and I wipe off the tears, hoping my eyes aren't dark red so Daniel won't realize I've been crying. Opening the bathroom, a wave of steam pours out along with Daniel with a towel wrapped around his waist. With my head down, I run into the bathroom. Turning on the shower to block out the sound of me crying, I look at myself in the mirror. Am I not good enough for Daniel? Is he only going to be with me for a few years then cut it off? Why does he want to wait so long? Is he second guessing this relationship?

A knock at the bathroom door startles me "Joey? You've been in the shower for quite a long time, are you okay?" Clearing my throat, I croak out "yeah I'm fine Daniel, I'll be out in a minute" even I could hear the tears in my voice, Daniel knows I've been crying now. "Joey, come here" "one minute!" Shutting off the shower, I wipe my eyes with a wet towel, trying to get the redness out of my eyes. The second I open the door, I'm pulled into Daniel's strong embrace. "What's wrong Joey? Please tell me" I push him off me "not today Daniel" "will you ever tell me?" I nod, looking back at him, a sad smile drawn on my face "eventually."

*The Next Morning*

Daniel wakes me up with a longing kiss. It takes all my willpower to not push him away. Sitting up, I look at Daniel "morning." Daniel frowns "are you going to tell me what's been bothering you?" I shake my head, pecking his lips "don't worry Danny, everything's peachy!" "You never say that! There has to be something that's really bothering you" I start to tear up "can't you just drop it, Daniel!" Jumping out of bed, I grab some clothes before running into the bathroom. I sit in the bath as the water hits my backside, my knees pulled to my chest with my head resting on my kneecaps, tears slowly mixing with the water droplets hitting the back of my head. I felt completely heartbroken, I didn't feel loved by Daniel anymore.

You must be thinking I'm insane, Daniel has shown me each and every day that he loves me. He even posted a photo with a caption saying he's in love with me. But here's where I'm coming from. Yes, I know Daniel loves me. But I don't feel it inside of me, every piece of my heart has shut down, not letting any feeling inside. Right now, all that is going through my mind is if Daniel really loves me, why does he want to wait so long to marry me? Now I'm not saying I want to get married right this second, but I want to get married within the next two to three years. I feel like Daniel wants to wait four to five years.  Why? Am I not enough? Does he not see a full future with me?

As Daniel is bringing me to New Hampshire, dread fills me. He's taking me to a special place from his childhood and here I am moping around. God, I'm pathetic. "Daniel" "yeah?" I look over at him "I'm telling you the one hundred percent truth here" no I'm not. "Okay, what's been going on?" "The truth is, I was just really tired last night from all the travel and the cloudy weather yesterday. I didn't mean to snap at you, I apologize." Daniel takes my hand and kisses it "apology accepted love."

I feel horrible for lying to Daniel, I always do. I just don't know when the right time is to tell him the truth. I can't do it today, I couldn't do it last night. I'm digging myself a deeper hole everytime he kisses me or smiles so wide his face could crack. I know I'll have to tell him before the book tour, if I don't I'll be too sad to even fake a smile for the fans.

*That Night*

"Joey" I walk into the bedroom where Daniel is, he pats the spot on the bed next to him with a desolate smile on his face. "Joey, I know you weren't telling me the whole truth in the car, what's really going on?" And just like that, all the dams I put up around my emotional state broke as I cry into my hands, unable to form a proper sentence. "Woah, woah Joey what's wrong?" I look at him "do you love me?" "Yes! Absolutely! I love you so much Joey, where is this coming from?" "You said in your livestream yesterday that you wanted to wait until you're ready to have kids to marry me. Which saddened me because it made me realize that you don't want to marry me anytime soon, I want to marry you so badly Daniel. I-I thought you wanted to wait two to three more years, but the more you say you want to wait makes me feel like you want to wait for four to five years. And to me, I feel like you're just saying you want to wait more and more just to break it off with me someday. I feel like you don't want to marry me at all. Yesterday at the wedding, I looked at my sister and her husband wishing it was us at the altar."

"Daniel, I want to marry you more than I want to breathe. But, I feel like you don't want to because you don't want me in your life forever." He stops me there "Joey, of course I wanna marry you. Hell, I'd marry you tomorrow! I can't imagine life without you, I can't go to sleep at night without knowing you're wrapped around me. The days I'm without you, I count down the days until I'm with you again. Joseph Michael Graceffa, you mean the absolute world to me. I want to marry you, have kids with you, watch them grow up and experience life, I want to grow old with you. I was going to do this tomorrow but" he leans over to the bedside table, taking out a small box, kneeling down on one knee. "Will you marry me?"

I couldn't have said 'yes' faster. I pulled Daniel to my chest, kissing him fervently. "Yes, I will marry you Daniel Preda" I whisper against his lips, both of us smiling. Daniel pulls away for a minute, slipping the engagement ring on my finger before pressing his lips to mine.

Only Daniel Preda could ever make me feel as happy and in love as I am. I see a bright future ahead of us, and with Daniel by my side, I know I can take on all of life's biggest obstacles.