Jupiter's Heart (ON HOLD)

Chapter 44

*Jupiter's POV

"She's experiencing a retrograde amnesia, it is the inability to retrieve past informations due to the head trauma she experienced the othe night. In some cases the memory loss can extend for decades while others may lose few months of memory."

Nakatulala lang ako habang nakikinig kay Mj kasama ang mga magulang ni Heart. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa mga nangyayari ngayon, napalunok ako ng bumabara sa lalamunan ko dahil alam kong any minute maiiyak na ako.

"And in Heart's case the only memory she lost is the memories she spent with Jupiter."

Napapikit ako at naihilamos ang kamay ko sa mukha ko dahil sa narinig ko, naramdaman ko din ang pag tapik ng mama ni Heart sa likod ko.

"Bakit si Jupiter lang ang nakalimutan niya?"

Tanong ng papa ni Heart, napatingin naman ako kay Mj na ngayon ay nakatingin lang din sakin.

"Maybe because most of her memories with Jupiter were stored in her long term memory." 

Bigla akong natigilan sa narinig ko at  naalala ang sinabi ni Heart nung araw na bumisita kami kina mang Paeng.

"It's funny how one night in this house holds a long term memory."

Napakagat ako ng labi ako at napahipo sa noo ko sa mga naririnig ko ngayon.

"S-so anong dapat kong gawin para maalala niya ako? Anong gamot sa retrograde amnesia?"

Mj let out a sigh as he lean his back on his chair.

"As of now, there is no cure for retrograde amnesia."

I felt my eyes sting with tears and as I close it tight I felt a tear trickle down my cheek.

"But we have some treatments to help her remember, we can use constant repetition of the details of an event or memory however the patient should not be force to remember since it may cause stress and make her condition worse. "

But there's still no guarantee that she'll remember me.

"There are some cases that patients who experience retrograde amnesia retrieve their memory after experiencing another accident like accidentally bumping their head on a hard surface or after experiencing a short impact or force but then again this was not proven and it doesn't guarantee the total retrieval of the memories."

Para akong lantang gulay na naglalakad sa hallway ng hospital, naalala ko nanaman kung pano ako titigan ni Heart kanina. I was like a stranger in her eyes. Napaupo ako sa isang steel bench at hindi ko na napigilan ang pagiyak ko. Hindi ko inakala na ganito ang mangyayari, bakit ngayon pa? Bakit ngayon pa na kung saan gusto ko na siya?

Nakapikit padin ako ng maramdaman ko ang marahan na paghaplos sa buhok ko.

"You like her right?"

I nod my head in response, kahit hindi ko imulat ang mata ko alam kong si Neptune ang nagsalita.

"Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko nasimulang maramdaman to but all I know is that I was so scared of lossing her that night. Parang sinasakal ako nung nakita kong nakahiga si Heart na walang malay. I want to take her pain, kung posible nga lang na ako nalang yung nasaktan matagal ko nang ginawa and I don't know what to do right now because she can't--she can't even remember me."