Alren: Scared Of Happy

Chapter 21

SURPRISE!
I FINISHED THIS DAMN CHAPTER FINALLY!
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I must have lost my mind. What was I thinking? Where did that confidence come from? She drives me insane. But I don't understand what's happening. She's so confusing. We're back at our LA house right now and I'm laying in my room drowning in thoughts. What else is new. When will things change for me? When can I start living my life how I'm suppose to. I've lost my mind. My mind is like a mad house. So many shadows haunt me. I need to understand my thoughts. My demons. I need to gain control of my life again. But how? Lauren is confusing me even more. Her constant change in moods towards me. I can't ever tell when she's going to just snap back to how she was when she found out my love for her. I sit up in bed and grab my guitar that's next to me. I start messing around with some chords.

You've got a hold of me

Don't even know your power

I stand a hundred feet

But I fall when I'm around you

Show me an open door

Then you go and slam it on me

I can't take anymore

I'm saying baby

Please have mercy on me

Take it easy on my heart

Even though you don't mean to hurt me

You keep tearing me apart

Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart

Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart

I'd drive through the night

Just to be near you baby

Heart open, testify

Tell me that I'm not crazy

I'm not asking for a lot

Just that you're honest with me

My pride is all I got

I'm saying baby

Please have mercy on me

Take it easy on my heart

Even though you don't mean to hurt me

You keep tearing me apart

Would you please have mercy on me

I'm a puppet on your strings

And even though you got good intentions

I need you to set me free

Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart

Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart

Consuming all the air inside my lungs

Ripping all the skin from off my bones

I'm prepared to sacrifice my life

I would gladly do it twice

Consuming all the air inside my lungs

Ripping all the skin from off my bones

I'm prepared to sacrifice my life

I would gladly do it twice

Oh, please have mercy on me