Holding Out For A Hero

39. Too Drunk To Dream

10 Weeks Later - July 27/18

James - 1 Year

Olivia - 10 Months

Filming in Germany was great and went smoothly. Dave had surprised me and had Jordyn, the girls, Abby, Taylor and Olivia all fly out for James's first birthday. I couldn't believe my baby was a year old. It seemed like just yesterday I was bribing him to come out with a teddy bear. He was walking and starting to talk more and it just amazed me. Dave and I had somewhat started planning the wedding nothing beyond looking online at things. I worked through the six weeks in Germany and then we headed to Las Vegas. Dave and James came with me because he wasn't doing anything currently.

We had been in Vegas for a week when Dave went to visit the girls for a week. He took James with him so I was on my own in the city of sin. I spent my nights chilling in my hotel suite pigging out on junk food and watching chick flicks or going to the hotel casino for a few drinks and gambling. On a few days when I only filmed in the mornings, Kimmy and I would go do something around town like Madame Tussaud's wax museum, Freemont street or going to my favorite, the Titanic exhibit at the Luxor hotel. I had a day off and spent it sleeping and skyping with Dave and the girls, who would joining Dave and James on the trip back and Jordyn would come get the girls a week later.

We were finishing wrapping for the day and we all had the weekend off finally. I was going to go to the hotel and just sleep but Kimmy convinced me out with her, Jessica, Michelle, a few of the guys in Elvis' posse from the film and Greg, the new Elvis. Kimmy and I went to her room and grabbed an outfit for her and then headed to my room. As we got ready I got a text from Dave telling me when him and the kids would be arriving tomorrow. I sent an ok back and closed the messenger app and smiled at my wallpaper. It was a picture of Dave, James, the girls and I. I missed them all like crazy and even though I had Kimmy to hang out with, I was still lonely. I couldn't wait to see them tomorrow but tonight I was going out to have some fun. Once I was finished doing my hair and make up I went and put on a black skirt, black strapless bra with a patterned sheer shirt with long sleeves and a pair of reddish flowered platform open toed shoes.

"Oh my god you look hot," Kimmy exclaimed as I walked back into the bathroom where she had just finished putting on her make up.

"Thank you. I'm not staying out long tonight. My man get back tomorrow and he said the girls want to go to the museum and I do want to join them. A hang over is not an option. Oooo I like that shade of lipstick," I said as she put it on.

"Thanks and that's fine. Just come have a couple of drinks then leave. You excited to see them tomorrow?" Kimmy asked and I just nodded.

"Ya. I miss my little guy the most. I love Dave and miss him like crazy but he can call and text and skype me but James can't. I miss just holding him and playing with me," I said.

A couple of tears fell from my eyes and I wiped them away before we headed out for the night. We headed down to a bar in the casino and first thing I did was order four shots of tequila. I wanted to get rid of the ever presence and over whelming sadness that wanted to come out. We ordered nachos and sliders so that we wouldn't be so drunk. Everyone else joined us as we finished eating and that's when the real party started. We had a beer and a few shots there before we headed out to a club. I wasn't going to go but Greg talked me into it. I had fun and danced the night away which made e realize how much my life had changed in the past two years. Even though I wouldn't trade what I had now, I kind of missed going out dancing or just for drinks. At some point we left the club and while everyone else went back to their rooms, Kimmy, myself, Greg and one other guy went back to the bar we were at before the club. We stayed there for an hour before Kimmy decided to call it a night. It was long after when I realized the other guy was gone too. That was my cue to leave.

"I'm going to go. I have to get up tomorrow for the kids and Dave," I slurred as I got off the stool. I stumbled slightly and steadied myself with another bar stool before I turned to grab my purse.

"Let me help you get there in one piece. You look like an accident waiting to happen," Greg said as he got up and walked the three short steps towards me. I looked up at him and decided why not.

"Ok," I said and went searching for my room key in my purse.

I was so engrossed in looking for the room key that I started walking out of the bar. I heard running footsteps behind me and I looked up to see Greg. We headed to the elevators and waiting until one opened. On the way up to my floor Greg moved closer and closer to me. His hand brushed against mine just as the door opened. I walked out and headed towards my suite with Greg following me. I stumbled once because let's face it I was drunk and wearing a form of high heel. When I got to the door I put my key in the door and opened it before I turned to see Greg just inches from me. He then leaned in the rest of the way and kissed me. I don't know what came over me but I kissed him back. We were full on making out as we made our way from the door to the couch. Before I knew it he was on top of me, still making out as his hand started going up my skirt. As Greg moved his lips to my neck, the clouds in my head cleared and I realized I was about to make the worst mistake ever. I pushed Greg off of me and he fell to the floor.

"What the hell?" he asked angrily.

"I can't do this. I'm engaged for fuck sake's. Get out," I said. Greg stood up and just stared at me in disbelief.

"Seriously? I thought you wanted this?" He asked, his voice getting louder.

"No I don't. Now get out," I screamed at him as I got off the couch and ran to my room.

I slammed the door shut and put my back against it. I listened as Greg opened and slammed the door shut and the tears just started falling. I slid down the door and just sat there crying until I crawled over to the bed and got in it still fully dressed. I took my shoes off and then just laid there crying until I fell asleep.

When I woke up the next morning I checked my neck to make sure there were no marks. I was relieved to see that my momentary lap in judgement hadn't left any visible marks. I had decided to wait to tell Dave what happened for when the girls weren't with us. I was going over my lines for Monday when the door to the suite opened and the girls came running in. When they saw me on the couch they all piled onto the couch and hugged me. When they finally got off of me, I got up and walked over to Dave who wrapped me up in a big bear hug. When we let go he gave me a few quick kisses before someone said mama and I turned my attention to James. He puts his hands on my cheeks and pushed them together and I started tearing up. We then spent the rest of the day going to the wax museum and just being a family.