Holding Out For A Hero

42. Give Our Love A Fightin' Chance

4 Days Later - August 22

"Thanks for letting me stay here again. I might be back but who knows," I said after I finished hugging Abby and Taylor.

"Your room will be waiting. Rufus's room will be too," Taylor said back. When I looked at him he winked and I rolled my eyes.

"Tell him I'm sorry for leaving without saying goodbye," I said as I headed towards the car.

"I will. Good luck queen B," Abby shouted as I got in. I closed the door and put my seatbelt on before looking in the mirror at James.

"Let's go home and wait for daddy," I said to him before I started the car.

I waved goodbye to Abby and Taylor and drove off. I pulled into the drive way and headed inside with James. The past four days I took care of James while going over my lines for next Monday. The past four nights though I had spent them with Rufus. We didn't do anything other than talk, stare at each while laying down or cuddling. We had agreed that nothing should happen until I knew if Dave and I were still together or not. Although all I wanted to do when was smother him in kisses when we were alone. Dave wasn't home when I got there so I sat around played with James until it was lunch time for him. I fed him and then put him down for his nap before I made myself a sandwich. I was finished and going over lines in the living room with the baby monitor on the table beside me when I heard a door open and close. I put my script down on the table and waiting until Dave walked around the corner.

"Wow look who listened," Dave said as he took his sunglasses off.

"Why wouldn't I?" I asked as he walked around and sat in the chair I was in five days before.

"I don't know. Heard from a friend Rufus was still in town and staying at Taylor's as well," Dave said as he picked at the arm of the couch. I pulled my knees up closer to me and hugged them.

"Nothing happened between us. I was good," I said.

"Good to know. Where's James?" he asked.

"Napping. Dave I'm sorry that I did what I did. I really wish I could take it back," I said.

"I know I know. I was reminded that I myself once did what you did when I was around your age. Maybe if Jennifer had forgiven me for cheating on her things would have ended differently. I want to forgive you and forget that ever happened but I can't yet. I just need time Britt. I know you lvoe me and I love you but right now I hate you. You hurt me more than I think you realize. You not only slept with someone else but he's 22 fucking years younger than me. Do you not realize how that makes me feel? I feel like you're bored with me and that I can't satisfy or keep you happy because I'm too old," Dave said and turned to look at me.

"No you're not Dave. You do make me happy and keep me satisfied. I'm sorry I hurt you. What do you want to do?" I asked. I tried not to let the tears come out as I spoke but a few slipped out.

"I don't know. I say we at least call off the engagement until I know if I can forgive you for this," Dave said as he moved closer to me. I stopped trying to be brave and just let the tears coming pouring out. I put my head on my knees and hugged the to me even tighter. I felt a hand on my leg and I looked up to see Dave right in front of me. I took my engagement ring off and held it out to him. He took it and put it in his pocket and the tears started coming ahrder now.

"I'm so sorry," I sobbed. Dave then pulled at my arms until I let go of my legs and pulled me into his arms.

"I know. I'm not trying to hurt you Britt. We just really need to work on this. If you really want to make this work than just give me time and no more sleeping with other guys please. No more talking to Rufus either," Dave said.