Holding Out For A Hero

43. When Under Ether

6 Weeks and 3 Days Later - October 6, 2018

Things hadn't changed much between Dave and I. We acted like a normal family but we weren't acting like a couple. Dave kept doing me whenever he wanted and I was starting to get used to but it still hurt a bit. I had started season three and things where going good there. Dave didn't come to set with me and I was grateful about that. Rufus kept texting me and I tried not to text him back but I'd like to see you try and resist a goofy but adorable selfie being sent to you. So now when I went to work I would text Rufus. Just before I left to go home I'd tell him I was leaving and we'd say good night. Today I was at the doctors on my weekend off. I hadn't been feeling great the past two weeks and I had come in on Monday. The doctor gave me antibiotics for my sore throat and took some blood. My doctor had called me on Thursday and asked to see me. I told her I couldn't make it in until Saturday morning and now here we were. I was staring at her in complete shock as James struggled to get out of my arms.

"You're kidding right?" I asked as I let him go down to the floor.

"No Ms. Lane I'm not. By the look on your face you and Dave weren't planning this," my doctor said.

"No we weren't. How far along did you say I was?" I asked.

"About 7 weeks," she replied. I did the math and put a hand to my forehead.

"Mama go," James said. I turned around and saw him standing by the door.

"Ya ok sweetie. Umm can we schedule a...," I stopped. I still couldn't say the words after I had gone through with it the time before.

"Oh ok. We should schedule it for the next time you have two days off then. You'll also need someone to take you home and to watch him," the doctor. She seemed stunned at the choice I had just made but it was my choice.

"I can come in Friday after work and I'll have someone here," I replied.

We finished making the appointment and James and I left. I got James in his car seat and I got into the front before I called Abby and asked to come over. She said yes and I drove over there. Abby and Olivia where waiting outside for James and I when I pulled into the drive way.

"Dave is here discussing the trip next weekend. We still going to the beach for a girls weekend?" she asked as I joined her on the front step. James walked over to Olivia and gave her a hug and then walked over to the grass with her.

"We can go to the Malibu house still but uh I might be in bed most of the weekend," I replied.

"What do you mean? Are you planning on being sick?" she asked looking worried.

"No but I'll be in pain from the thing I'm having next Friday. I need you to not tell anyone, even Taylor," I said in response.

"My lips are sealed. I'm here for you but can I ask why you're doing it," Abby said and I looked over at the kids.

"I'm about seven weeks which makes it not Dave's by about a week," I replied.

"Oh shit. I thought you guys," Abby started.

"Nope," I said cutting her off.

"Wow. My lips are sealed and I'll be there to help in any way I can. I have something to show you now," Abby said as we stood up. She stuck out her left hand and I screamed out in surprise and excitement.

"Congratulations. When did he ask you?" I asked.

"Last night. He cooked dinner, did the dishes, ran me a bubble bath and put Olivia to sleep for me. When I got out and walked into the bedroom he was down on one knee at the end of the bed," she replied. I reached over and hugged her as the door opened.

"Oh you told her I take it," Taylor said as we let go.

"Of course she did. Congratulations T," I said and hugged him as well.

"Thanks. Thought it was about time. You staying for lunch too?" he asked.

"Of course she is. This way she doesn't to cook for me twice in one day," Dave said as he joined us.

I made a funny face at him and he put his arm around my shoulders. As the kids started walking towards us I shrugged his arm off of me. I picked James up as Abby picked up Olivia and we headed inside for lunch. After lunch we headed back home together in my car and when we got there I headed straight inside. I headed upstairs, into our bedroom and locked our bathroom door behind me. I turned the faucet in the bathtub on and then sat down and just cried. I couldn't believe how stupid I had been. I stood up after awhile and walked over to the mirror and just stared at myself. I jumped when I heard a knock on the door.

"Britt you ok?" I heard Dave say once I turned the bath water off. I opened the door and walked passed him.

"Ya I'm fine. Did you need something?" I asked as I sat on the bed.

"Hey I know I've been a dick lately but I'm trying here. Why don't you tell me what's wrong and maybe I can make it better," Dave said. I looked up at him and wished I could talk to him about this.

"Nothing's wrong Dave. I'm just not feeling good still and my throat is bothering me," I lied.

"Lay down and just rest. Everything go ok at the doctors though? I don't understand why she asked you to come in.

"Oh she just wanted to make sure I was okay and to tell me my blood tests showed nothing," I said.

"Ok well get into bed, relax, nap, read or whatever you want and I'll bring you up some soup and coffee," Dave said. We both got off the bed and I got under the blanket as Dave held it open for me.

"Can you make it just tea and no soup please?" I asked as he put the blanket around me.

"Peppermint?" he asked.

"Yes please," I replied with a small smile.

Dave then kissed my forehead and left to go do whatever. I rolled onto ym side and just started crying again. When Dave came in with the tea I tried to stop crying but I couldn't. When he told me to move over I was fully expecting him to try and start things but he didn't. He got under the covers with me and held me as I cried. I turned around to face after awhile and he wiped away a tear on my cheek.

"Is this because of me?" he asked.

"No. It's a combination of being sick, work, not enough sleep and now other things," I said hoping maybe he'd come to his own conclusion. Thankfully he did.

"Oh ok. You get the next week off from me bending you over things. Do you maybe want to go out for dinner tonight with James and I? I know you're not feeling good but I want to take you out. Take you out and show you off a bit," Dave said. I smiled at him and moved a piece of hair away from his face.

"Ask me again after a nap. Where's James?" I asked suddenly sitting up.

"In the thing at the end of the bed. Lay back down please," Dave said and tugged at my arm.

I laid back down and closed my eyes. I laid there with Dave holding me and humming something familiar. I fell asleep and when I woke up Dave was just coming out of the bathroom. He told me to get ready for dinner and I said I still wasn't feeling good. He looked upset but said ok and that he would just order pizza. When the pizza came Dave brought James into our room and we ate in bed watching a movie. This is what I needed after this morning, a night with two of my favorite guys.

One Week Later - October 12

The next week went by smoothly and it was nice to have a break from Dave. When Friday came around I got up earlier than normal for work because I was only working a half day. When Dave showed up with James at around eleven thirty I was on my last scene for the day. I got a short break to say good bye to him and to take James. When Marc yelled for me to get back to set Gisele to take James for me. Once I was done for the day, I thanked Gisele for watching James and then went with Abby to the doctor. After that was over we headed to the beach house for the weekend. I stayed on the couch during the days and at night James and I would snuggle together in bed. I felt horrible for what I had done. If I wanted things to work out with Dave having another man's baby was not the way to go about that. I really wanted things to be better with Dave but only time would be the judge of that.