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"what do you wanna do today?" I ask Diego as we get dressed.

" I don't know...but I know what I wanna do tonight..." he smirks at me. 

I throw a shoe at him and chuckle.  " you fucker, come on , I'm being serious what do you wanna do today?" 

" I wanna go tubing. I know you already went but I wanna go."he smiles. 

I slowly walk over to Diego and wrap my arms around him. 

"then lets go tubing baby." we smile, looking into each others eyes. he traces his fingertips against my jawline, slowly pulling me close to him. his lips meet mine. 

"I juss wanna kiss my fuckin baby foreverrr!!!" he picks me up and carries me out of the tent. 

I point to my ring finger and smirk. 

we get in the car and head towards the same place I went too yesterday. 

Diego starts chuckling. " wanna know something funny?" 

"sure." I reply. 

" I had a dream last night, that me and you were married..at least I think we were, but anyways. me and you were married and we had a little girl. her name was ray, or Raleigh, I think. it was something like that. but she came in there and woke me up saying I had to take her to school cause mommy had to go to work. and just in that moment, everything felt perfect. telling you that I loved you when you left for work, when you told Raleigh she had to stop sticking crayons in some boys sandwiches cause the kids bitch ass momma kept complaining.  baby, it just felt perfect. it was perfect. " he grabs my hand and smiles. 

" sounds perfect." I smile back and give Diego's hand a squeeze. 

I didn't have the heart to tell Diego that I didn't even plan on living long enough for the happy family he wanted.  trust me. I want to spend the rest of my life with Diego. but what if  my life ends soon? what if I get sad enough again to try to end it all ..again? 

"baby are you okay? I've been trying to talk to you for the past five minutes and you acted like you couldn't  hear a word I was saying." Diego looks at me concerned.  shifting his attention between me and the road. 

"sorry. I was thinking." I smiled and looked at Diego's hand in mine. 

"about what?" he grins. 

" who the fucks idea it was to name our baby girl Raleigh. its such a beautiful name!" I chuckled. knowing I just lied to him. 

"maybe we'll keep that name in mind." he smiles and sets his eyes back on the road. A few minutes later we pull up to the loading station. 

"oh shit.." I say under my breath. 

Jake was here. again. and Diego didn't know about Jake. 

"what is it baby?" Diego asks as he steps out the car. 

I get out the car and run straight for the gift shop as Jake continued to try on different life vests across the parking lot. Diego runs after me. 

"uhm. the bus. its a different bus this time. the other one must have broken down somewhere. no big deal. hey lets go in the gift shop so we can get the papers to sign and everything." I say smiling, trying to convince Diego. 

"okay." he grabs my hand and smiles as we walk into the gift shop. 

as me and Diego wee signing papers I heard the bell on the door jingle. 

pease don't be Jake, please please PLEASE don't be Jake.  

"papers for one please." 

fuck it was Jake. 

I saw  him walk up beside me out of the corner of my eye as he started signing papers .  I didn't bother to make eye contact.

" hey Madeline. you look beautiful today."  

 Y O U     M O T H E R F U C K I N G     D U M B A S S 

" uh excuse me?" Diegos tone got sharp as he got defensive.

o h   w e l l   f u c k i t y    f u c k    f u c k    f u c k. 

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