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SUICIDAL CONTENT! I will warn you guys ahead of time. 

Diego POV

it's been two days since I last saw and or spoken to Madeline. and I'm not going to lie, I'm a wreck. I haven't even taken a shower nor eaten anything since then. 

"baby get up. you haven't moved from that spot in days." my mom walked in the bedroom.  she was right, I haven't gotten out of bed. I didn't even know what time it was. 

"no.," I grunted as I rolled over facing her. I was still in the same clothes I was wearing days ago. 

"yes." she pulled the covers off of me.

"god damn boy, take a fucking shower" she waved her hand in front of her face. 

"why." I pouted. 

"because...I saw Madeline today.." she sighed. 

"like..you-you visited her or you saw her?" I quickly sat up. 

"I saw her at Walmart... she was a wreck as well. she's completely ruined herself it looks like."  my mom sat down on the bed next to me. 

"great. I didn't just hurt myself, I hurt her." I pursed my lips. 

"well no shit Sherlock." she smacked me on the back of the head.

"what am I gonna do mama...." I felt the tears rise again. 

"well your not fixing to cry, that's for sure. I talked to her brother and he agreed to give me her room number and everything she's staying in so you can try to fix this." 

"does she know?" I asked, thinking I had an idea. 

"no. so you should go over there and surprise her." she smiled. 

" mom....she doesn't want to see me..." I sighed while getting out of bed to take a shower. 

"well too bad. I'm tired of seeing my son like this." she stood up. 

"so get ready. you're going over there" then she walked out the room.

I went to the bathroom to take a shower. I noticed I still hadn't put the mirror back up. and quite frankly, I hadn't planned on doing so.

once in the shower, I let the scorching water trickle down my back. after washing my hair and body, I sat there feeling nothing but pure numbness. my mind traveled to a far far away world I had been imagining about for a while now.. a place better than the one I'm in now. 

before I knew it, I was bawling my eyes out again. 

"Diego, are you okay?" I heard my mom knock on the door. 

"I'm fine.." I managed to spit out between each sob. 

Madeline's POV

private messages: 

Lucas: heard about what happened with Diego. let's talk. 

me: Alright. ill give you my room number to the hotel I'm staying in. 

Lucas: okay. ill be there in an hour.

I decided to go to Walmart real fast before Lucas came over. I couldn't remember the last time I had eaten so I planned on picking up just a few snacks and necessities since I was going to be staying in the hotel for a while. 

I didn't bother changing out of the clothes I had been in for days. who was there to impress? exactly. no one. 

once at Walmart, I grabbed some soft drinks along with milk. then I decided id need cereal for whenever I decided to eat breakfast again. I went straight to the cereal aisle and the first thing I saw was the Trix cereal box...