can i just say that im extremely upset that my views on my chapters are going down😔 is it the book? are you guys loosing interest? because i dont want to continue something no ones going to read...
madelines POV
when diego asked me if i planned on keeping the baby, my heart was telling me one thing, while my mind was saying something totally opposite.
"i..i dont know...i dont know if im ready to be a mom.." i whispered.
" but madeline... this is a baby..our baby.." i heard the cracking in diegos voice.
"and I'm sorry I just think I'm way to young to be having a baby right now..." I said, knowing I was disappointing him.
"Madeline.... if your think your too young to have a baby, then wouldn't you think your too young to be getting married?" he said this little bit harsher.
"Diego. I love you, if I didn't love you I wouldnt have even said yes to marrying you?"
"madeline. i want this baby. who knows, like what if this was a once in a life time thing for us?" he pouted.
"why can't we wait till after we get married to start a family?" I say. I was frustrated because I knew Diego wouldn't drop this.
"fine. whatever, its your body, do whatever you want. I'm done trying to tell you what I want. I want this baby Madeline! " he gets up walking to the living room.
"Diego you don't understand! I'm not ready for kids! maybe after we get married ?!" I said while standing up.
"what difference does it make Madeline?? WERE GETTING MARRIED IN 10 FUCKING DAYS!" he yelled while grabbing his keys.
"ALOT CAN HAPPEN IN 10 DAYS! and where are you going??? its like 2 o'clock in the morning!" I yelled.
" Mcdonalds! im fucking hungry! " he said while slamming the door shut.
a few minutes after Diego left I decided to text him.
private messages:
me: can you atleast get me some nuggets.
Diego: I swear I fucking hate you. 💔
me: nah you don't.
Diego: how many u want?
me: 20 piece ya ya.
Diego: bye 🙄
me: don't forget my nugs.
nugs before drugs guys.
hey so yeah why are my views going down? I wanna try to hit 1million by Christmas :(
I understand my updates have been really slow lately but thats only because I've had exams and shit 😫 I promise ill be updating how I use too verrrryyyyy soon. just give me another day guys. I HAVE ONE MORE DAY OF EXAMS. lol but guyysss for reals. I have so much shit planned for this book but If people are just quitting on me like this, I'm not gonna have a reason to write anymore. but anyways, I really hope you guys forgive me for being so inactive 💔
alsoooooo..
many of y'all have been asking me what to name my I guess you can say "fans" like all my daily readers and stuff. and honestly I have no idea what to call you guys, so drop some name ideas in the comments and ill pick one 🙃
if you haven't read my HELLBOY lil peep book...thennnn wyddd with yourrr lifffeee?? lol just kidding . but seriously, go check it out if you haven't already.
I LOVE YOUUUU GUYYSSS.
YOU ARE READING
daddy • Lil Xan
Fanfictionshe was supposed to be nothing more than a one night stand. but that changed quickly once diego started to catch feelings for Madeline Rose.
