Diego's POV
"Sweetie, you need to wake up. you have therapy in two hours and I wanted to stop and get some lunch on the way." I heard Madeline say.
it's been 3 days since I tried killing myself... I thought that since Madeline and I are sort of back together I'd feel better.. but I don't. of course id never tell Madeline that though. these past few days she hardly sleeps anymore. shes always watching to make sure I don't do anything crazy since that's what the doctors told her to do.
"Do I have to go to therapy.." I mumbled into the pillow.
"Yes, Diego you have to go." she sighed.
"But why? why can't we skip and go see a movie or something?" I was trying my best to convince her.
"Diego please just fucking go to therapy..." she put her head in her hands as she sat down on the end of the bed.
"Are you going to go to Group while I'm in therapy...?" I asked while leaning up.
"Yes." she looked at me. she looked as if she hadn't slept in days. just something else to blame on myself.
"Fine, i'll go..." I grunted as I got out of bed to get dressed.
"Thank you, Diego... I think today ends your 48-hour thingy right and they prescribe your medicines to you." I heard her as I walked into the bathroom. as soon as I went to shut the door, Madeline yelled.
"Diego! you know you cant shut the door unless I'm in there!" I heard her walking towards the bathroom.
"Oh my fucking god! so you can shut the door and be by yourself for 10 minutes, but I cant??" I yelled back.
"I'm not the one who jumped off a damn bridge and tried killing themselves Diego!" she walked in there and stood in the doorway. I could see the tears welling in her eyes just from mentioning what happened.
madeline also has to go to Group for some kind of Pregnancy thing where a whole bunch of women and teens who had miscarriages come together and talk about their feelings or some shit like that. And then she has another Group session after that but she won't tell me what that one is for so quite honestly I'm not worried about it. But, I do know that Madeline is also being prescribed medications but I don't know what for.
I wouldn't really say things are back to normal between me and Madeline, but we're back together. But, I feel like she felt forced back into this relationship that night...
"Madeline..." I said quietly after I got done brushing my teeth.
"what?" she turned and looked at me. she was in the middle of doing her makeup of course.
"do you still love me..." I asked, kind of scared to hear the answer.
"I never stopped loving you, Diego." she smiled.
"Then how come you wouldn't give me a chance that night in the hospital?"
"I'm sorry, but did you forget we lost our fucking baby that night?? OUR BABY DIEGO! AND DO YOU KNOW WHY? FROM STRESS. BECAUSE OF YOU!" she started crying.
"so you're saying it's my fault you lost the baby...?" I couldn't believe what she just said.
"no. its my fault because i allowed myself to be constantly stressed.." she said quietly.
"wheres the mirror?" she continued as she looked around.
"hidden.i dont want to se-see myself.." i stuttered.
"Diego..." she looked at me, tilting her head.
"Madeline. if you want me to get better. let me do it at my own pace.." i said shyly while walking out the bathroom.
"come on. we gotta go." she followed me out, kissing me on my cheek.
***
Diegos POV
"how are you feeling Diego?" my therapist Mr.Hutsonburg asked.
"fine." i sighed.
i feel lonely.
"thats good... hows your sleeping schedule?" he smiled.
"good."
i wake up almost every hour crying.
"well....here you go. your prescriptions for your meds..the instructions will be on the bottles.." he smiled while handing me two pieces of square paper.
"thanks." i mumbled while taking the papers and walking out the door.
i stepped outside and madeline wasnt even here yet.
Madelines POV
" Madeline, whats your story...why are you here amongst us." the lady in the middle of the circle turned to me and asked.
" well... i recently had a miscarriage due to alot of stress...and then right after it me and my fiance broke up for a few days..." i pursed my lips.
"for a few days? so yall are back together?" she smiled.
"yes." i fiddled with my fingers.
"what brought you too back together?" she folded her hands in her lap.
" i watched him jump off a bridge..trying to kill himself..and i just couldnt imagine him doing something like that again.." i scratched my head.
then all the other girls in the circle started whispering.
"im gonna. um. go. i gotta pick my friend up from therapy..." i just got up from my chair and walked out. i felt like i was being judged...misplaced even.
***
i pulled up to the center diego had therapy at and parked in the front.
"where were you ive been waiting for half an hour.." diego got in the car.
"i was at Group therapy." i looked at diego, his hands were shaking as he looked down at the papers in his hands.
" Madeline...." he turned to me and said with tears in his eyes.
"whats wrong with me..."
something in my heart ached at the sound of those words.
"baby... nothings wrong with you..." i cupped his face in my hands.
"then why am i so sad..." he closed his eyes at my touch.
" your going to be fine..."
"do you still want to marry me even though im sad..?" he whispered.
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Fanfictionshe was supposed to be nothing more than a one night stand. but that changed quickly once diego started to catch feelings for Madeline Rose.
