Before I Die (UNEDITED)

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pa ko nagdecide pumasok eh wala na kaming ginagawa. Final grades na lang ang hinihintay at pwede nang magbakasyon.

Bilang na bilang na ang mga estudyante dito sa school, karamihan sa kanila ay nagbabakasyon na. Even Paul and Gerald are out of the country. Sandra is in her Province, si Wella ay nasa kung saan man.

This past few days I like being alone. Masyado nang maraming nangyari, masyado nang maraming luha ang dumanak at stress ang lumapit. Atleast, once in a while, I want to feel peace.

Hindi na kami nagusap pang muli ni Lance. I even blocked him on my accounts and in my contacts. Hindi nadin ako madalas sumasabay sa kanila mag-lunch, ganun din naman siya.

Pag nagkakasalubong naman kami ay hindi ko na siya tinitingnan, I wonder if he looks at me?

"Kate." Timothy called kaya lumingon ako, "Bakit pumasok ka?" He asked.

"Bored ako sa bahay. Wala naman akong ginagawa. Ikaw?"

"You texted me na pumasok ka right? That's why I'm here."

Tumango lang ako.

Tumabi siya sakin at binalot kami nang matinding katahimikan. There are times that I don't want to talk. At isa to sa mga pagkakataon na to.

"Thinking about Lance?" He suddenly asked.

Napalingon ako sa kanya, "Huh?" I asked out of confusion, "Nope."

"Ang lalim kasi nang iniisip mo. Care to share?"

"Hmm. Wala naman, I was just thinking kung hindi to nangyari lahat, ano kaya lagay ko ngayon?"

"Happy." He said, "Happy with the life that you have. Matagal na kitang inoobserbahan Kate. You're always happy with him."

"Are you stalking me?" I said.

"No!" Defensive niyang sabi na nakapagpatawa saakin, "Why would I stalk you?"

"Cause, you like me?" I chuckled.

"Yes, I like you Kate, pero alam kong off limits ka kaya hindi kita iniistalk, baka masapak lang ako ni Lance."

"Then what do you mean by you're always observing me?"

"What I mean is, kilala kayo ni Lance sa school, and ayon sa mga naririnig ko, never nawitness ng mga estudyante dito na nagaaway kayo. You and Lance are the perfect definition of a perfect couple. Kaya if, hindi ka nakipaghiwalay sa kanya? I'm sure you're the happiest girl in this campus."

"Talaga lang ha?" At pinanliitan ko siya nang mata.

"Nako Kate, stop with that look. I don't like it." Ngiwi niya.

I chuckled.

"Ibahin na nga natin ang topic, saan ka naman pupunta ngayon?" He asked.

Actually, I don't have any plan for today. Gusto ko lang umalis ng bahay dahil unang-una, wala namang tao dun, Arexha's out with her friends, Mama and Papa are in work. Kaya mabo-bore lang ako sa bahay.

"I don't know." I honestly said.

"Want to be alone?"

Sometimes, I think Timothy knows me for a very long time. Nahuhulaan niya kasi ang mga gusto kong mangyari.

"Honestly, yes. Paano mo nalaman?"

"You deserve peace once in a while. I witnessed everything from the day you and Lance broke up. I can feel how exhausted you are."