Before I Die (UNEDITED)

Epilogue

Epilouge

When we were young at nagkataong family reunion, lagi tayong tinatanong ng mga mas nakakatandang kamag-anak natin kung anong gusto natin maging paglaki. As for me, laging ganito ang sagot ko,

"Gusto ko maging katulad ni Mama."

And as I said that everyone will smile at me and say my dream was a smart one. Because my mother is one the most succesful member in our family chamber.

When I started school, lagi kasama ang pangarap sa pagpapakilala and my speech on introducing myself never change until I was in sixth grade.

"Hi, I'm Areeyah Kate Almodovar, I'm 12 years old. I am the eldest daughter of Kathy and Alexander Almodovar. I have a sister and her name was Arexha Gail Almodovar. When I grow old, I want to be a lawyer and doctor just like my parents are."

Then everyone will clapped at me and our teacher will say that it was a very good dream.

Ganoon lang kasimple ang mga pangarap ko noon because everything was near to perfect in my life. I can have everything I want. I have lots of friends. I was enrolled in a good school. I have my whole family with me. All of my dreams are already existing except from to be like my parents and I will try hard to achieve that one and only dream.

But, it is true that as you grow old your dreams change. My dreams began to change way back in high school. I realized that I don't like science that is connected from being a doctor and I don't like studying laws which is connected from being a laywer.

When they asked me what is my dream my answer will be like this,

"I want to be succesful as my parents are but I want to do it in my own field. I want to build a business on my own."

When I told my parents about the course that I want to take up for college, they did support me.

Plus the factor that I got into a relationship with Lance. Lance wanted to be a chef because his parents are both like that. And when we got together, we dreamed to have a restaurant together.

Not until, I was diagnosed.

I was fighting with stage 1 brain cancer since high school. I thought everything was going well because I was actively doing all the medications that I have to do.

Now, my dream is just, I want to live more. If only I could live more.

The day that the doctor said how long I can live, I asked myself, what did I do wrong? Hindi pa ba sapat lahat ng ginagawa ko?

They told me to do lots of therapies and medications but I refused. What's the use of it? Hindi nadin naman ako mabubuhay ng matagal.

I broke up with the guy I can't live without, I used another guy to show that I have somebody else, I asked my bestfriend to make my boyfriend fell inlove with her. I went out of the country. I made all my friends mad at me.

I did all of that thinking that it was all for the best. Until Timothy told me this,

"Kate sorry ha. Kung sinabi ko sa kanila lahat. Ayokong mawala ka nang wala kang kasama. I don't know what is your thinking about the concept of death but, can't you see? That it is harder to leave knowing no one is around you? Kate, don't leave like this. Okay?"

Even in my last breath I was thankful because he did change everything. It is a relief for me that all of my friends will support me, especially Lance.

I died in his arms and that was the best feeling ever.

Right now, if you're going to ask me what is my dream? I could only answer you this,

"My dream is to see everyone happy with their lives. I want to see them smile and laugh just like the old times. I want them to travel the world together because that was our dream and I want them to achieve it even though I'm gone. I want my family to be happy as always. I want Arexha to achive her own pursued career. I want Timothy find the girl that she will love like how he loved me. And of course, I want Lance to find someone who can love him forever and I want Lance to be happy and I hope he will never forget me."

My dreams are not for me anymore.

I will always watch them. Smile at them. Up here. In heaven.