In Case of Emergency // Connor Franta (ft. R.D.)

Chapter 12: How could you?

Songs:

Roger Rabbit by Sleeping with Sirens

The Ice is Getting Thinner by Death Cab for Cutie

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After a while, I was finally able to regain my composure. Ricky and I began getting prepared to go to the beach. Going to the beach always calmed me down, especially after having an argument.

Noticing that the bathroom door was open, I went over to see if Ricky was ready. I laughed quietly when I saw that he was fixing his hair as usual.

"Hey, Amy. I should be ready in a minute or two."

I nodded. He was wearing his usual outfit, a nice tank top and a pair of shorts.

"Hey look, we're matching!" Ricky shouted.

I looked down at my outfit and we actually were matching. We were both wearing blue tank tops and white shorts.

"Copycat!" I exclaimed.

He smiled and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"People at the beach are probably going to think we're one of those lame couples that match on purpose," Ricky said softly.

I only laughed in response.

"Well I'm ready," Ricky said.

"Me too," I muttered.

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Once we were at the beach, I immediately got out of the car. I was honestly really excited. Ricky got out shortly after and grabbed my hand. Holding Ricky's hand gave me a comforting feeling. I loved it.

"I'm so glad you forgave me. I've missed the simple little things like holding your hand," Ricky told me.

I smiled up at him. "Me too. I always feel so happy around you."

"I feel even happier. Words can't describe how I feel around you."

His comment made me blush. We finally began walking together and luckily for us there weren't many people on the beach that day. We spent the entire time walking, holding hands and making each other laugh.

I haven't laughed this much since the night Connor and I built that pillow and blanket fort together. Wait a moment... Did I really just compare spending time with Connor to spending time with Ricky?

'Amy, what the hell are you thinking?! You love Ricky! you don't feel that way about Connor...you can't feel that way about him,' I thought to myself.

"Are you alright?" Ricky asked, breaking me from my internal conflict.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"You seemed like you were deep in thought..."

I smiled up at him and kissed him.

"Don't worry, Ricky. Everything's fine. I'm fine."

He nodded. "Okay, good."

But I wasn't fine. Ricky should know by now that if a girl says that she's fine, she usually isn't. The thought of me having feelings for Connor made me want to throw up. Don't get me wrong, I love Connor, he's great, but the thought of ever hurting Ricky in any possible way makes me sick. Just the thought of it makes me die a little inside.

"Wait, Amy? Why were you crying earlier? you never told me."

"Um..." I paused. "Connor was mad at me for taking you back... He just said some things that kinda hurt my feelings."