Memories (Osix) (Hanahaki sequel)

chapter 28

It was a little later when I heard the bedroom door open.
"O-Oswald?" I asked, waiting for a reply.
"Feel? Are you in the bathroom?" Oswald asked.
"Yeah...I kinda need you" I replied softly.
I heard the bathroom door open up, he was here.
"What the hell feel!" Oswald yelled, I looked down at my swollen hand.
"I didn't mean to...but can you get the glass out of my hand?" I opened the curtain up.
"Yeah" he sighed, kneeling down next to the run.
I whimpered as he began to pull out the shards.
"I really can't leave you alone can I?" Oswald asked.
I shook my head no, I was too dangerous alone.
Oswald rolled his eyes before focusing on the glass.
It took him a little while before he finished up.
"Now undress and get an actual shower. Your soaked" Oswald instructed me.
I nodded, doing as I was told. The last thing I needed was to annoy him.
"I will be right back. Do not, and I repeat do not do anything stupid" oswald glared at me.
"Okay honey" I mumbled, turning on the shower.
He left the bathroom, quickly returning moments later.
"He must really not trust me" I thought to myself.
"Oswald?" I asked, looking at him as he cleaned up the bathroom.
"Yes feel?" He turned his head to look at me.
"You know...these kids are the only reason I'm still alive?" I asked, looking down at the bubbly water.
"Feel don't talk like that" Oswald growled at me.
"It's true though...I battle with myself every morning. How do you love me?" I asked.
"Cause I do" he replied, dumping the glass in the trash can.
"Great answer" I mumbled, rolling my eyes.
"You think into everything too much" Oswald sat on the counter.
"I know. My mind wants to kill me and I can't get it out" I lowered my ears.
"So explain it to me. I want to help" oswald leaned against the wall.
I looked over at him, he just nodded.
"I...hmm...my brain fights me. It tells me things that break me. This morning when bendy came to wake me I didn't have my sweater on. My mind started to taunt me. It kept telling me I was a disappointment." I started off
"But your not a disappointment" Oswald explained.
"My brain doesn't like to let me believe that...but it also started telling me to starve myself again" I grabbed the rag.
"Don't do that feel" oswald hopped off the cabinet.
"I can't promise anything...my mind just. I hate it" I growled under my breath.
"Do you want to go to the doctor?" Oswald asked, kneeling back down next to the tub.
"I just want to tell you everything" I replied.
"Okay I'm listening" Oswald rubbed my ears.
I smiled slightly, thinking where to begin.
"I'm just really self conscious...I don't want to disappoint any of you. I want to be a great model. My mind likes to taunt me with things. L-like soemtimes it tells me you won't love me when I get bigger. Than I remember the h-Hanahaki..." Oswald rested a hand on my shoulder.
I took a deep breath, looking over at him.
"I get so scared. I love you, I have loved you since the day we met. That day in the restaurant. It was the moment I felt something i never felt before. I fell head over heels for you. Than this voice...it formed telling me all these things. Telling me to hurt myself to just die already. I wanted it to go away and it did when we got married. It just now came back when I found out I was pregnant" I explained everything to him.
"Feel I think you need to get medication" Oswald rubbed my arm soothing me.
"I know..." I took another deep breath and let it out.
"Why don't we go to the doctors tomorrow and see if we can sort something out. Please tell me this more often. I'm here to help you, to protect you. I don't want you hurting yourself." He leaned in and kissed my forehead.
"I'll start telling you things more often I promise...it's just hard. I've never talked to anyone about this stuff. Not even Sheba knows..." I rubbed my arm.
"Well were going to fix that. This is all going to work out in the ending. Just think about when we have our kids" Oswald rested a hand on my stomach.
I could help but smile slight at his remark.
"Okay....can you do me a favor?" I looked up at him.
"Hm?" He asked, tilting his head in confusion
"Can we have fun?" I asked, feeling my face burn.
"Tonight?" Oswald looked at me a little shocked.
"I need a pick me up" I replied, hiding my face.
"Okay...tell me if I hurt you though" Oswald winked at me.
I nodded, I must have been a dark pink by than.
He got up and headed to the door.
"I'll be waiting for you kitten~" he smiled, walking out.
My heart began to race, I really did love him.
I quickly finished my bath and got changed.
"What's the fun of being undressed to begin with" I laughed a little at that thought.
I took another deep breath, passing the broken mirror and walking towards the door.
I slowly opened the door, stepping into the bedroom.