Something Perfect [COMPLETED]

Chapter 30 - 'I thought I was a Freak'

Sorry for the long wait you guys! I do have an excuse!

Okay so I'm on a condensed course and they're really working us hard at the moment. I've been working every day and I haven't had time to do anything else. I've literally been a hermit for the past few weeks and it's been awful! I have loads of revision to do and my exams are in July so I'm concentrating on them but after that I'll update a bit more but please be patient!

I haven't exactly had a great few days and I'm under a lot of stress! The only reason I can update now is because I'm back at home for the weekend and I haven't brought my books so I'm just relaxing with family...but I'm on my iPad so I don't know how long this chapter is going to be!

I don't have any of my notes which I've made for this story so I'm purely going on imagination from the top of my head. I hope that's okay for now! I felt so bad just leaving the story like that but I haven't really had a choice so hopefully this chapter will make up for it! If you've got any questions or you're wondering what's going to happen in the story then just message me and I'll be able to answer I just haven't got time to write a huge chapter!

Okay... Now that my rant is over, I hope this is okay!

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I couldn't believe that I had never noticed before.

My nan, if all people, was just like me and I hadn't noticed. For all of these years, I hadn't noticed what my nan wore or how she reacted around people. I felt so stupid and oblivious that I was almost embarrassed to go and visit her, though is knew I had to to get answers.

I had to know why I was like this and if she knew I would be like this, and if anyone else was like this besides her and Lorraine who I could talk to. Maybe there were a few of us in the town!

I knew that Lorraine could probably answer my questions but I felt that talking to family would probably be a lot easier and less uncomfortable. I liked Lorraine but I think it would be different with my nan.

Maybe, now that I knew about her, she'd be able to talk to me feely.

I couldn't believe that someone of my family had suffered the same way and I hadn't known.

Why hadn't my mum told me?!

I was annoyed at her but I didn't want to think about it for now. I hadn't seen my nan in a long time and I didn't know how she was going to react to me. I just hoped that she'd be friendly and would explain things to me. Maybe she already thought that she was crazy, believed the doctors and now wouldn't tell me anything. It was possible and I hoped that that wasn't the case. I needed her help. I needed Lorraine's help.

I needed to get out of this prison.

Lorraine shuffled around as we walked. She was quiet but I could tell that she was excited. Her fingers twisted and turned and she bobbed as she walked. She got a few looks but I didn't care and clearly neither did she. When people stared at her she just grinned like a lunatic and waved at them, causing them to shuffle awkwardly past us as fast as they could.

I would have said that it was embarrassing but I was too busy focussing on what I was going to say to my nan. I hadn't exactly been sympathetic with her when I'd visited her so she may have felt a bit lonely. I felt guilty for just dismissing her like that because everyone said she was crazy. I should have made more of an effort, especially as I was a freak too.

When we got to the ward, I asked the nurses and was directed towards an isolated room. It had been so long since I'd been here that the smell startled me. It smelt like a hospital but more homely rather than the usual bleach smell. It made me wrinkle my nose but it was quickly forgotten when a bed appeared in my line of sight, followed by dark greyish hair and a fail body, covered from the neck down with a cover.