Shawn Mendes Imagines

Help me

Warning: Depression and suicide is mentioned throughout this imagine.

Y/N POV

I needed help! That's all I could say. There was this kind of darkness hovering over me all the time. I hated feeling like that. I just wanted to be happy, but at the same time I just wanted to end it all...

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I pulled out my phone and called my best friend...my only friend...my crush...Shawn. The phone rung twice and he picked up.
"Hey Y/N, what's up?" He said, cheerfully into the phone.
"Uhhh hey...Can you come over I just need to talk to you...Please." I half whispered the end.
"Yeah sure. Are you okay?" The tone in his voice changed to a concerned tone.
"I-I...Yeah..." I lied...Again!
"Okay I'll be over in five." He hung up.

*Timeskip*

A loud knock at the door pulled me out of my thoughts and I slowly walked towards the door. I pulled the sleeves of my hoodie down over my wrists and opened the door. Shawn wrapped his long arms around me and I cried onto his shoulder. Shawn shut the door with his foot and picked me up, bridal style, and carried me onto the sofa.

"Talk to me Y/N please...I hate seeing you like this. I want to help you but I can't if I don't know what's going on. Please just talk to me..." Shawn trailed off, tears in his eyes.
"O-okay...I don't really know what to say. I've been feeling really down over the past year and I've done some things I know i shouldn't have..." I slowly rolled up my sleeve revealing the small red lines covering it,"I didn't tell you because I don't want to be a burden. I hate feeling like this Shawn. I feel worthless...I feel like no one wants me...I feel tired all the time...I feel like I have no purpose to life...I just keep making mistakes...I j-just...I feel like I want to die Shawn! I-I need help...Please help me...I hate this...Please...I need you to help me..."
Shawn pulled me in for a strong hug and I sobbed onto his shoulder.

I pulled away and wiped my teary eyes with my sleeve.
"Y/N please listen to me okay...I will help you...I need you okay. You are the most important person to me. You have a purpose! You are not worthless! Without you I'm nothing. Thank you for telling me!" Shawn rubbed his thumb across the palm of my hand,"I love you okay Y/N"
Shawn slowly lent in and I did the same. Our lips touched and fireworks exploded in my stomach. We moved in sync and Shawn kissed me softly, as if I would break.
He pulled away and looked into my eyes,"I love you okay. I need you okay. I want you okay." Shawn whispered.
"I love you too Shawn..." I whispered,"I want you too."
"We are going to get you help and I will be there for you through every step of the process." Shawn held my hand tightly,"please be mine?"
"How could I say no." I giggled and embrace him in a tight hug.

"Please don't leave me tonight. I don't want to be alone..." I frowned.
"Anything for you." He smiled and snuggled up to me.