Shawn Mendes Imagines

we're not friends

Your POV

What were we? We weren't friends. Friends don't treat each other like we do. I loved him! He treated me like he loved me to, but we were just friends...Always just friends.

"Y/N!" Shawn waved his hand in front of my face, bringing me out from my thoughts,"Andd your back in the room!"
"Aha sorry," I sighed,"I was just thinking about stuff."
"What stuff?" Shawn smirked, inching closer to me.
"Us Shawn!" I said, louder than anticipated,"What are we?"
"Whoa Y/N!" Shawn laughed,"We are just friends."
"No, were not friends. Friends don't treat me like you do Shawn. We don't just feel like friends to me. I never know where I stand with you. I hate how this feels Shawn. I hate It! I'm falling deeper and deeper  in love with you every second and I don't know what to do. Sometimes you act like you love me in that way but other times you act like we are just friends." Tears began to brim in my eyes.
"Y/N, you know I'm not ready for a relationship and I have so much stuff going on in my life. I love you so much but I just can't commit to you in that way. I don't want to hurt you." He tried to hug me but I pulled away and stepped back.
"What do you think you are doing to me then?" I ask, waiting for a reply but he didn't answer,"Exactly! My friends don't love me like you do. I can't do this Shawn. I love you but I just can't."
"Please don't say that Y/N!" Shawn pleaded, stepping closer to me.
"I have to Shawn." I sighed, grabbing my shoes and putting them on.
"No Y/N please, We can sort this out!" He tried to grab my arm but I pulled away.
"No Shawn. Maybe you can come back to me when your ready for a relationship. I love you so bloody much but I can't just hang on and wait for you to be ready." I replied, sadly.

Shawn didn't say anthing. He just stood there, tears rolling down his red cheeks. I just wanted to grab him and pull him into my welcoming arms, but I couldn't. I needed him to realise how I felt.

I pulled on my coat and opened the front door.
"That's why friends should sleep in other beds and friends shouldn't kiss me like you do." I sighed, taking one last glance at the boy who had broke my heart,"Call me when your ready for a real relationship."
And with that I made my way down the cold, wet, stone steps outside Shawn's apartment and made my way to my own. Rain poured from the sky, mixing with my tears, as I walked away.