Shawn Mendes Imagines

Request for ShawnMFan_X

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This is a request for ShawnMFan_X  I really hope you like this.

Shawn's POV

I sat on the icy cold bathroom floor, feeling nothing. My phone lied beside me, on her Instagram. She seemed so happy, posing beside him...Her new boyfriend! I had broken up with her a few moths ago and it was the biggest mistake of my life. I thought it was just what I wanted, but clearly I didn't know myself at all. As I glanced back down at that picture a rush of overwhelming emotions came over me. My insecurities kicked in. He was so much better looking than me, she seemed so much happier with him than she was with me. 

I had nothing left to loose, now that I had completely lost her. A wave of panic came over me as tears began to brim in my eyes. My breath began to speed up and it felt almost as if the walls were caving in. Everyone thought I was okay because I was the one who broke up with her, but I wasn't. People just simply told me to 'move on' and 'find someone new', but it isn't that simple. Not for me! I had had Rosy, and nothing, no one could beat her! 

One second I'm gasping for breath on the bathroom floor and the next I've picked up my phone and scrolled through the pictures of Rosy and I together. I couldn't push myself to delete them. All the happy memories. All the best moments of my life. As I scrolled through each picture, my anxiety increased, worrying that she takes him to the places I took her and relives our memories with him. I hated being alone. I hated this empty apartment. Her side of the bed was always cold when I woke up and I had no one to wrap my arms around, during cold nights. I missed her so much. My heart ached without her touch. I ached to just hold her. I began to gasp for breath once again, as I finally let the tears roll down my face. She was truly gone...and I finally had to realise that. 

As these thoughts ran through my mind, my phone pinged, signalling a text. I opened it.

Charlotte-Hey, I was wondering if you maybe want to meet up and get coffee or something like that. xx

I guess it's time for me to finally meet somebody new...
I could take her to all the places I took Rosy to...
But loving her is something I could never do, because I had Rosy before...