Dangerous

Chapter 5

Serena's POV

"What was that all about?" Jacob asked

"Nothing," I replied looking at the ground

"You're going to tell me that what I saw was wrong?" he asked

"I was just comforting her she was upset,"

"You never just 'comfort' someone you don't know,"

"Well I did you got a problem with that!" I snapped storming off

I didn't realise where I was walking to until I reached my favourite walking track, I walked for about thirty minutes until I reached the spot, it was absolutely beautiful up here I had a lookout of all of LA and all the buildings and lights. This is where I come when I'm in a bad state of mind or I just need to clear my head.

I don't know why I was so protective of Demi but I was just pissed off at Jacob for interrogating me and acting like I'm heartless. Yeah I act like that but he knows I'm not, he knows everything I've been through and he damn well knows I'm not heartless.

My mind spiralled back to Demi.. I wonder what made her that upset and that broken, her eyes showed pain and the way she clutched on to me whilst we were hugging made me see how much she's actually hiding. I don't know why I'm even thinking about her usually if I see a girl cry I just forget it ever happened but there's something different about her.. Something I've never felt before when I'm around her and I don't know what it is.. But whatever it is it's creeping me out.

Demi's POV

I was currently sitting on the lounge and worrying about tonight, what was going to happen? Would he follow through with what he wanted to do or would he leave it? I don't know and knowing that I don't know and only he does in that psychotic mind freaks the shit out of me.

Nobody understands that I'm a LESBIAN and that will never change. I know but why do I have a boyfriend? I'll start from the beginning.. I was about 12 when I started to feel attracted to girls but I was always told how wrong it was and how I will go to hell so every night I would pray, pray that it was just a phase. A year went by and I was still attracted to girls so I swore on my grave that this secret of mine would never come out.. As I kept going through my years I was in denial all I could think was 'I can't be a lesbian.. I like boys' but I turned 18 and I knew that I was a lesbian and I had no doubt about it..

So then I decided I would come out to my best friends Marissa and Selena and I thank god every day that they accepted me the way I was and loved me and still do to this very day. Next I decided I had to tell my family, I sat them down in the lounge room and simply said 'I'm a lesbian' there were mixed emotions on their faces and I started to feel the tears coming down my cheeks, next thing I know they all were hugging me Dallas, Maddy, Eddie and my mom. In that moment I couldn't have felt more loved and happy knowing that I could be myself without having to hide.

None of this included all the other battles that I fought with self harm, depression and an eating disorder but this just added on and then I went to rehab soon after.. During the time in rehab Wilmer would come visit me all the time and he was amazing and incredibly supportive of me throughout the whole thing.

However once I was out of rehab he started to get flirty with me and incredibly cheeky, I let it slide as he knew I was a lesbian but then it started getting worse and that's when I tried to put a stop to it but his reaction wasn't what I was expecting. He physically abused me and threatened that he would do that again until my family and I were dead and I couldn't let that happen so he asked me out and of course I said yes obviously for the safety of both myself and my family.

Throughout all this I was still battling with my depression, self harm and eating disorder but I committed to my recovery and even though each day it was challenging I still did it.

I was still angry, confused and utterly upset that this was being forced on me and I couldn't do anything about it but I had to do it and I'm thankful that all the shit that he has put me through I've stayed committed to my recovery and I haven't let him ruin it. My family were obviously confused as I did come out saying I was a lesbian and now I wasn't but they said they would support me no matter what.

There hasn't been a day that I've wanted to just come clean and tell everyone including the police but he's made me so scared and made me think that no matter where he is he can always do something and I should never underestimate his power. Although what he's doing is disgusting and horrible and should never happen to anybody over these four years he never pushed me into sex until now, recently he's been getting fed up with me that I'm still a lesbian and I'm not in love with him. Obviously though I knew sooner or later this would come and he wouldn't give up until he got what he wanted but I was hoping that this would happen later so maybe I could've found a way to get out of this and be free, be myself but of course I've been too scared and haven't said anything.

Now it is later and he wants it to happen.. God knows what I'm going to do but I'm not going to let him get away with this anymore I'm fed up with it, it's been four long years and I just want to be myself, I just want to fall in love with a girl and start my own family.. Why is it so hard? Why are people so judgemental and un accepting? Why is it so hard for girls to love girls and guys to love guys? Who knows but it's not fair love is love and it should be accepted no matter what because at the end of the day it's your life and not anyone else's to live and I've learnt that life is too short to live your life with regrets but I know this is my biggest regret and now that I'm nearly 22 and I'm a strong independent woman I feel like I'm ready to end this and get him out of my life but the only question left is how?

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Heyyy everyone what did you think??

I know there's not much of Demi and Serena but I wanted to write about what Demi has gone through and the challenges that she has and is facing!

Will Demi be able to safely get out of this 'relationship' with Wilmer or will it end badly or not even happen?

Could Serena find out about any of this?

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