Dangerous

Chapter 30

Serena's POV

Anxiety, the emotional state in which people feel uneasy, apprehensive or fearful. People usually experience anxiety about events they cannot control or predict, or about events that seem dangerous or threatening. There is a feeling of vulnerability, and severe anxiety can persist and become disabling.

Currently, this is what I felt.

The storm brewing outside as I hid under the covers in my most vulnerable state. The flashbacks kept going through my mind, what they said, what they did.

My breaths became out of control and I felt like any minute I would die.. I jumped out of bed and pulled my hair, screaming as the flashbacks kept repeating through my mind over and over again.

"Don't touch me!" I cried, hiding my head between my legs.

I heard muffled voices and somebody holding me and I pushed them away, screaming even more, my breaths becoming even more uneasy.

Once again strong arms wrapped around me and held me tightly, I screamed and screamed but soon I couldn't do anything,

"Serena!" Somebody said and finally I stopped shaking and breathing became normal once again.

"Don't hurt me," I cried.

"I'm not going to hurt you Serena," Josh said and I looked to see his arms wrapped around me and Demi standing at the door.

"Please don't hurt me," I cried to myself, "Please don't hurt me,"

Demi's POV

Closing the door her sighed and fell to the floor, "Shes asleep," he said and I nodded, sitting down on the floor next to him.

"Does this happen often?" I asked and he looked at me quizzically before answering, "Only when there's storms,".

"How come?"

He brushed his fingers through his wavy brown hair and looked up at me,"Thats when her brothers first raped her, on a stormy night,".

I looked to him and remembered when Serena only very briefly told me of the incident, "Has she ever talked about it, like thoroughly enough to help her maybe move on or put it in the past?"

"We've talked a few times about this, all of us, however what she went through, what we all went through is something you can't move on from when it's still going on,"

"What do you mean still going on?"

"Her brothers are very much alive,"

"Are they here?" I asked scared of the response I would hear.

"In a way,"

I knew there was more, I knew he was holding back information but without asking anything else I rested my head back against the wall and sat there in silence.

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Serena's POV

I woke up in the morning to the smell of bacon and eggs which is something that doesn't occur often so not wanting to miss out I jumped out of bed and ran downstairs to see Demi and Josh cooking.

I loved how they have become good friends and they can actually have a good conversation and hang out because these boys are my brothers and it would suck if Demi didn't get along with them.

"Good morning," I smiled.

"Good morning," they both replied in unison and Demi came and planted a kiss on my cheek.

I sat at the kitchen bench and that's when it hit me, all of the memories from early this morning.

"I'll be back I'm just going out on the verandah," I said and walked out in a hurry, grabbing my cigarettes along the way.

I planted myself on the chair and lit up my cigarette. I can't believe that it happened again.. I thought I was getting better and moving past it but obviously I'm not, I'm still at first base.

"Are you okay?" I heard her sweet voice say and I nodded exhaling the smoke.

She sat down next to me and let out a deep sigh, "Serena talk to me,".

"Demi I don't want to talk about it, just forget it even happened,".

"Serena don't run from your problems. They will keep haunting you so face them and you'll realise you're stronger than you think,"

I exhaled once again and she rolled her eyes as I know she hates smoking with a passion, "Don't tell me what to do!" I exclaimed.

"Stop pushing me away!"

"That's what I'm good at Demi don't you understand that, all I do is push people away so they don't hurt me!"

"Serena don't push me away let me be there for you,"

I shook my head and tossed away my cigarette before running as fast as I can, I heard the faint sound of Demi's voice calling me but I just kept my eyes forward and kept running to my spot.

As soon as I reached my destination I started to scream, I kicked the dirt and I threw rocks until I had let out all the anger and frustration within me until all I could feel was that familiar feeling of emptiness and sadness.

I grabbed my pocket knife and held it tightly in my hand and with precision I made the cut on my vein, not once but multiple times and soon the blurriness invaded my body and all I saw was black.

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Sorry for the wait my chapter deleted somehow and I had to write it all again! Not exactly what I had written but pretty close!

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