Dangerous

Chapter 28

Serena's POV

"Hey babe," I said to Demi who was lying down on the couch.

"How was school?" she asked.

"School sucks at least I'm finishing soon," I sighed collapsing next to her.

"Where are the boys?"

"They went out or something," I said and Demi nodded.

"Don't I get a kiss?" I asked her and she giggled moving closer and planting her soft, luscious lips on top of mine.

It's been a month since I opened myself up to Demi and dropped my guard, although there are a few things that I still have refused to reveal we are going steady.

However this is still incredibly challenging for me and a complete different turn from what I am used too, having sex with any girl I see. The urges are still there and are incredibly hard at times to shake off but I've been trying for both myself and Demi. Also something that Demi has noticed is that it's hard for me to take things slow, talk to her, treat her like the person whom I love and the fact that I have this weird thing about commitment.

"What are you thinking about?" she asked.

"You,"

She eyed me, "What about me?"

I shrugged shuffling a bit closer to her, "Why someone like you would stay with me even after everything I've told you and the way I treat you at times,"

She smiled and held my hand,"I like you, alot, in fact I love you and I understand that this is all new to you apart from Reagan and since I'm an understanding person and I love you I will wait,"

I smiled half heartedly and squuezed her hand tightly, "Thankyou,"

Demi not pressuring me to define anything is making things a whole lot easier for me.

I knew that Demi wouldn't wait forever and the time would come were I'd have to face the facts of our 'relationship' but for now what were doing is good and we're both content.

"Serena!" I heard Brittany yell.

"Lounge room," I called back.

Seconds later Brittany came in, kissing my cheek and planting herself next to me, "How are we?" she asked and I noticed Demi's body getting tense so I grabbed hold of her hand once again and smiled reassuringly at her.

"We're good and you?" 

"Good, good now do you mind Demi if I steal her away for a bit?" Britt said and i swear i nearly choked on my own saliva.

"What the fuck!" I exclaimed and I looked over to Demi who looked like she was about to kill someone.

"What it's not like you two are a thing or anything I mean whenever you guys hook up and shit its in private like all the other girls you've done,"

Those words stung and even though I know Demi and I just had a conversation about her being understanding about all this I knew she was right, it's exactly what I do with the other girls and then I toss them to the side.. But the difference is that it's Demi and i fricken like her and I hope that they're is a future for us but I know I'm not ready for the commitment again as it is a big deal and when I do give my full self to her I want to know that I'm 110% ready.

"You're right," I said.

"I know,"

"What!" Demi yelled.

"It's what I do right I hook up and do whatever I want with them and then I toss them to the side like garbage but not this time, no, I've never kept a girl around this long and you know what yes, maybe I'm not ready for commitment and we do everything in secret but that's okay for us and that's all that matters, so now you can either accept that I'm trying to move past the slutty me and start the new me or you can get the hell out of her,"

I looked between Demi and Britt, neither showing any sign of emotion which caused my heart beat to rapidly increase," Hello?"

"Demi she actually likes you," Britt finally said and walked off into the kitchen probably on the search for food.

I looked over at Demi who had a huge smile playing on her lips which caused me to smile, "You're amazing you know that," she said and I nodded, "I know,"

Rolling her eyes she nudged my shoulder and giggled. 

Seeing her full pink lips and feeling that familiar tempation I had to kiss them and everytime I looked at her that feeling never failed. I looked back up to her chocolate brown orbs then back down to her lips and as she teasingly licked her lips the lust was most likely evident upon my face.

I pulled her face into mine, kissing her like I needed to fell her lips upon mine to stay alive.

It never quite made sense to me how one person, one singular person can make you feel so alive, make you feel like yourself yet so different at the same time.

But then came Demi and somehow she did that to me.. I would never understand how but she did.

Demi did something that I never thought would be possible, she made me feel again. I had been numb for so long to everything and everyone and then when I met Demi, I could feel it, the change and the feelings and to be honest it scared me and maybe that's why it took me a while to accept that fact that I have feelings for her.

But now I'm no longer scared, I was turning into a better person no matter how long it takes, its true.