The Selection without America?

My Heart

Maxon's POV

I don't even think. I just do it. I lean down and I kiss America. Her lips so soft against mine and I pull her closer to me. All I could think about was just being with her. She was the one I actually loved. The world around us just disappeared.

I pulled back and looked at her. She had a frown on her face like she was sad it was over. All I could see was her. All I ever wanted to see was her. She is my world. She finally opens her eyes and stares at me and smiles a little bit. She pulls me into a hug and we just stay like that for a little bit. Not saying a word. Just hugging.

Just then some alarms go off. We haven't heard them in so long but it just brought back so many memories. The rebels are here. We don't know which ones the north or the south but we do know they are here.

"Come America. Come with me!" I yell over the alarms pulling America behind me. I run to the nearest wall and open the secret hidden door. It wasn't the one that led down to the big royal safe room just one that led to a small one for maids and cooks and the help. I shut the door and locked it. Now no one can get in. Or out. We were stuck here alone in this tiny space.

"Is that the rebel alarm?" America gasped and pointed up to the ceiling where there was nothing.

"No thats the ceiling." I joke. Hey at least make light of the situation we are in.

"Maxon! You know what I mean." I America said exasperated.

"Hey I'm just joking." I smile a little bit trying to lighten the mood.

"I guess it was funny. Now how are we going to get out of here?" She asked.

"After we scare off the rebels the guards come around opening all the hidden safe rooms. No worries we have food and water in here. Even some beds." I point over to the corner where there lay two cots and some blankets.

"Okay now that I'm not worried about me surviving we should talk." She says seriously.

"Talk about what?" I Ask pretending not to know what she was talking about. I didn't want her to feel guilty.

"Maxon Calix Scheave you KNOW what I'm talking about." She gave me a stern look and then looked down.

I followed suit and looked down also. I didn't want to speak, I mean she WAS the one who brought it up. If it were my way we would just keep kissing in here.

Finally she spoke up and broke the silence. "What I did was wrong. I shouldn't have kissed you. I'm married to Aspen. Your head guard. I- I don't know what I was thinking honestly." She says and I look up to see her rubbing her neck. She slowly looked up herself and met my eyes but averted her blue eyes right when we met. Maybe she almost felt just looking at me was cheating with her husband.

"He cheated on you America." I say slowly and softly. I cared for her. I wanted to punch Aspen so badly because he hurt America. If only he knew how much he really did hurt her.

"I know he cheated on me!" America burst. "You don't have to remind me again and again Maxon. I just can't anymore. I don't want to look at you or else I'm going to kiss you again. I don't want to look at Aspen because he hurt me so badly. I don't want to look at Lucy because she's the girl Aspen wishes he had. I just don't want to look at anyone. Not even myself. I just can't.

"I'm sorry America. But you are the only one who can fix this. It's your decision to talk about it with Aspen and Lucy or just ignore the fact that he did cheat on you and he did in fact break your heart." I say arguing with her but I tried to say it calmly.

"I know! I know I know I know. It's up to me. My decision. I want to talk to them and ask them why they did it. I thought aspen loved me. He sent me flowers and a note every week saying how much he loved me and how much he wishes he could be with me. Now- Aghhh now. Now I don't know. I feel like I don't even know Aspen Leger. It's just a name that I have heard. He's a stranger to me.

And then there's Lucy. She was so nice to me when I was here the first time. Now I find out she had an affair with my husband. I feel like I can't trust anyone. Anyone but you." She looks up at me with her big blue eyes. I just listen. That's all I ever want to do when she is talking. If I can't be anymore than a friend to her I guess I'll be a friend. I never want to loose her. No matter what."

"America..." I start but then she cuts me off.

"I don't want to talk about it Maxon. I'm so tired it's been such a long day. I'm going to go lie down." She walks over to one of the cots and lays down. In about fifteen minutes I can tell she is fast asleep. All that keep me awake is my own thoughts.

I made a mistake that night I choose the girl that won the selection. I should have chosen America to be Princess. I shouldn't have picked who my dad thought I should have. I should have picked someone I actually love. Someone that will make me happy when I'm feeling down. Make me laugh when I'm stressed. Just make me a better person by being by my side.

Kriss all she cares about is having the crown. The money. The power. The jewels. Everything a princess and queen have. All she want is everything I have and can give her. Even though she might become my wife doesn't mean she will have everything of mine. Yes she might have a title, a crown, money, and power. But here is one thing that only America can have of mine. My heart.

Hello I hope you are all enjoying this part of the story so far! Summer is coming up which I'm so excited for I can't wait. That means I have all the time in the world to write write and write some more. Please please comment what you think I love reading all your supportive comments and about your ships!! Please please also vote it would mean so much to me.

Next time I will post is on 6/1/18

Spoiler: they get out of the safe room and Aspen is hurt.