The Selection without America?

First Kiss

Lucy's POV

I have been avoiding America at almost all costs. I never want to be alone with her and always make sure that Anne or Mary is there with me. I haven't told the both of them about Aspen and my affairs because I didn't want them looking down on me poorly. I knew Anne has been looking at Aspen for a while now even after he got married to America. But with Anne and Aspen it's just been a joke between all five of us. I knew they would never have gotten together.

I still regret that first kiss. That spark that happened between us the very day where the whole affair started. We were in the garden just talking. Then things got out of hand...

(Flashback six months ago)

"How'd America doing?" I ask him and he instantly smiles. I can tell he loves America so much. I'm happy for him.

"She's doing great! I mean she's a two now and she has been adjusting her life accordingly. She is practicing to be a lawyer and I'm so proud of her. She's really trying her best to fit in as a two." He smiles and walks to a bench that hides us from view of the windows in the palace. He sits and I follow suit.

"I can't wait to see her for the one year reunion in six months. These months without her feels like eternity. I know I and Anne and Mary all miss her dearly. She gave us life! America is quite something." I say and laugh a little at the thought of America. She was so spunky and you never knew what she was going to do next.

"Now, less about America and me and more about you. How have you been? It feels like we haven't talked in forever. I've missed our daily chats in the hall." He says and frowns a little.

"Well I've missed our daily talks too. Other than missing you I've been pretty good." I look at him and a smile creeps up on his face. "What?" I ask and look down blushing.

"You missed me?" He asked and when I look up he is smiling from ear to ear and he laughs a little. I go over what I just said in my head and realized that I did just admitted that I missed him.

"I- I mean yeah I missed you. Cause' I love you. As a friend" I say and bro punch him. He rubs his shoulder like it hurt him and he kept laughing. He looked so cute there rubbing in arm and laughing. I joined in on the laughing and the awkward air about us went away.

Suddenly we stopped laughing and then looked into each others eyes. Our smiles faded and I don't know if it was all in my head or that our heads were trying closer and closer. Aspen's eyes looked me in the eye then at my lips then back at my eyes. My eyes followed the same pattern.

Our heads touch, then our noses, then finally our lips brush against each others. I suck in a breath as he traces his hands around my waist. All of a sudden his lips captures mine and we are kissing. His touch made me melt against him. I roam my fingers at the base of his neck and move upwards to touch his cheek.

My hands find themselves tangled up in his hair. His soft thick hair. His cologne smelled like him of course and I bathed in his sent. His hands finally found my face and held it to his. Not like I would ever move away. It felt right being there. It felt like I belonged there. In his arms.

After what seemed like the longest shortest minute of my life we pulled back. We both didn't open our eyes until a minute later. We just breathed and brought our thoughts back together. His hands dropped from my face while mine dropped from his hair. Our fingers just found each others and we held hands.

I slowly open my eyes to see Aspen staring right back at me. His lips were a little swollen by our kissing and I'm guessing mine looked about the same. Aspen slowly breathed in and his eyes glossed over. He unlinked his hands from mine and brushed them through his hair.

"Lucy..." He starts but he doesn't finish.

"Don't say anything. I get it. I do. It was a mistake. I'll leave you now. Bye Aspen, Umm see you around?" I say and quickly get up to leave.

Over the next few days we don't talk. When we pass in the hallway we look down and don't acknowledge each other's presence. Finally after a week of not talking, Aspen asks me to meet him in the hallway outside of the guards bedrooms. I do.

"Lucy. We need to talk about what happened last week." He starts off quite abrupt.

I go and sit bye him on the bench and sigh. "Yeah. I agree. Where do we start?" I ask, but I clearly know the answer. "Do you have feelings for me?"

"Easy. Yes. I don't have feelings for you. I've been trying to hide them for so long and it has been eating me up inside. I kept telling myself it isn't right. I love America. But then I got thinking, why do I have to hide my feelings for you. I couldn't hide them anymore. I never want to hurt America. I still love her. But I also don't want to ignore my heart." He says quickly, but I catch on.

"I get it. I have feelings for you too Aspen. I just never thought that we could happen because of you and America. America is one of my best friends and you are married to her. I don't wanna hurt her either but I like you Aspen. I'm not going to keep on telling everyone that I don't have feelings for you when I obviously do. I can't. It hurts too much to." I explain.

"We agree on lots of things. But the number one important thing that we need to make sure doesn't happen is that America can't get hurt from this." Aspen says and closes his eyes shut like he is in pain.

"Aspen. I don't like the idea but I would honestly do anything for you. Even if it means ruining my friendship with America." I say for once and for all.

(Present day)

Now thinking back on what I said, I was wrong. I don't want to lose America as a friend. She has always been there for me and she has stood up for all the palace workers. She is just a great influence on me and everyone here at the castle.

I can't lose America. I just couldn't let that happen. She needed to know the truth. She needed to hear it from me. I promised myself I would be honest with her and she deserves my honesty. America did nothing wrong. It was Aspen and I Who did. She deserves nothing but the truth from Aspen and I. And I was planning on doing just that. Telling America the truth and nothing but the truth.

How did you like seeing Lucy's side? Did you ever hate Lucy? If you did I'm sorry!! I love Lucy she is so nice and kind. What about Aspen? Do you guys like Aspen. When I ask this question I feel like in the comments people will be like "EWWW NO I HATE ASPEN!!" Well honestly I don't hate him. Part of me don't think anyone really hates Aspen. I think it's just that you don't like him and America together. You don't hate Aspen you hate the idea of Asperica. But my question is Do you like Aspen. I really like him. He's so caring and he thinks about others before himself.

Also the spoiler from He last chapter is false!! I was going to have them talk in this chapter but I thought you guys would like to see how Aspen and Lucy first got together!!

Would you like to see Lucy's pov again? What did you think about Lucy and Aspen's first kiss? Please please write what you think in the comments!!! I love reading them and responding. You guys are literally the best readers I could have asked for!! Also please please please vote for this chapter!! ❤️

The next time I will post will be on 6/19/18

Spoiler: America and Maxon talk in the garden. (Sorry I'll get to the Lucy and America talk soon)