Breaking Me Again.

Chapter 22 : Inhibitions

A/N: Alam kong napapansin ninyo ang pagiging ma drama pero don't worry magiging magaan na din ang mood pagkaraan ng maraming chapters. Hahaha. Thank you!

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''Gaga, bawiin mo yung sinabi mo sa kanya. Nag-iisip ka ba Aiks?'' Kiwi let out with such aggravation.

I told her everthing. I think I'll go crazy if I wouldn't be able to share it to her.

She jumped into conclusions and got mad at me. If only things would change this year. Na sana mabura lahat ng katangahan ko sa buhay. At kung sana ganun lang iyon kadali.

''Kiwi naman, hindi ko na alam kung ano yung tama'' Damn it! How can I do such juvenile thing? I lost my mind in the process and I almost lost myself too.

''So, are you satisfied with that?'' She then sipped her smoothie as she ruffled her hair out of frustration.

Bakas sa mukha niya yung disappointments. Walang may sabi na gawin ko yun, I just assumed that this was for the better.

Wala akong ibang inisip kundi sarili ko.

Ou, kasalanan ko talaga lahat. May pwede pa ba akong gawin para maitama ito?

''No. I'm j-just confused'' I stuttered. My heart was beating irregularly.

''Iniwan mo si Prix in the middle of his game tapos makikipagkita ka lang pala kay Zed?'' Kiwi said.

That's not the real point.

I didn't ask myself to give up Prix because he didn't ask me to give up on him. It's just that it didn't feel right if I just left him alone.

''Name anything. It's my fault'' I said coldly

''Pero Aiks, that's cheating'' I screwed up. Now, that's the real point.

''Now tell me, how do I fix this?'' I said leaning to her.

May magagawa pa ba ako? Gagawin ko ba? Bakit sobrang hirap? Mas mahirap pa'to sa mga exams namin.

''Kailangan mong mamili sa dalawa. Aiks naman eh, you should have said it earlier. Masasaktan si Prix. She was looking for you the whole time. He even lose the game'' I shook my head. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

Napaka selfish ko. Paano ko nagawa sa kanya to? Sana matapos na to. I was hoping, though.

''Well, I guess si Prix yung pipiliin mo. Try to think about your sacrifices just to fix your relationship with him. That's enough Aiks. He's enough''

She paused and looked me in the eye.

''Hindi ka pa ba nawindang sa sinabi ni Zed sa'yo? He's into someone. Stop rationalizing on almost everything. Use this....'' she pointed at my head where my brain lies.

She just slipped everything because she was upset by the thought.

''I think, I need to consider that one too'' I said with a straight face.

Tama lahat ng mga sinabi niya. Na sana man lang pairalin ko din iyong utak ko. I thought about it, considering the idea.

I was weighing between Prix and Zed. That's the case.

''Nandito lang naman kami ni Jem. You don't have to face that alone'' she's now taken off guard after hearing my side.

I was about to answer her when she said
''Pinagtakpan kita kay Prix. Sinabi kong umuwi kana kasi napagod ka'' after gazing at me, I let out a heavy sighed.