Because this is My First Time

CHAPTER 39

ZEI'S POV

I woke up early to prepare for myself for the first day of Simbang gabi.

It's quite cold noong lumabas ako ng bahay. The cold breeze completely dominated my body and my heart.

Yeah.

I think my heart right now isn't capable of loving someone.

I don't know but I am broken. But, still life must go on without Brylle.

Nakangiting pinagbukasan ako ni Josh sa kotse.

I smiled back.

"So how's your sleep?"
He asked.

"Well, it's fine," I aswered.

He turned the radio on.

Now playing:
I'll be by Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes
That color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath

Emeralds from mountains and thrust towards the sky
Never revealing the depth

"You're lying again." He said looking directly to the road.

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

Napatingin ako sa kanya.

Ayoko na kasing pati siya mahirapan.

I have to show him that I am fine and I am strong.

Tinigil niya yung kotse at tumingin sa akin.

Maluha-luha ang aking mata ngunit pilit kong pinipigilan ang luhang nais pumatak mula sa aking mga mata.

I felt his warm hands on my cheeks wiping my tears using his thumbs.

Hindi ko namalayang tuluyan na palang pumatak ang aking mga luha.

I'll be your crying shoulders
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I cried on his shoulders again. Ngumiti ako.

And rain falls angry on the thin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival
You're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated , I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of haertache that hang from above

"Thanks, but I'm always trying to be fine. Thank you for staying by my side." I said.

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I've drop out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Turned in, Turned in, remember the thing you said

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love ve suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the gratest fan of your life

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love ve suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the gratest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your life

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Papasok kami ng simbahan nang makasalubong namin sina Cyrill at Daryll.

People around looks joyful and bubbly.
Well it's Christmas.

Ito yata yung paboritong okasyon ng lahat.

Nakangiting lumapit sila sa amin.

"Hey, hi," bati ko sa kanila.

"Hey, hmm. Kayong dalawa lang?" Tanong ni Daryll. We nodded.

"Hmm. Good for you ate Zei. Kuya Josh is here for you," dagdag ni Cyrill. I heard her giggled a little bit.

"Mauna na kami, bye. See you around," Daryll said with matching wink and an evil gril.

Tsk What's up with those two? The mass started.

After mass we decided not to go home.

Madilim-dilim pa.

Pumunta kami sa isang coffee shop kung saan visible yung sunrise.

I took a sip of my coffee. Napatingin ako sa horizon.

Ang ganda ng view dito.

It reminded me of the day wherein me and Brylle watched the sunrise together.

Tsk.

I'm sick.

Those memories of ours always haunt me.

I just can't bear to forget it.

I just can't forget him.

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Thank you for reading. :)