The Shattered// E.D G.D

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<Just a bit of your heart- Ariana Grande>

Dear...journal?

Grayson and I have been having a lot of hook ups whenever we can. Whenever we have the chance, we're always hooking up. Every time we finish our hook ups, Grayson pushes me away from him. Both mentally and physically. We're basically tool's to each other, we only use each other for sex.

And for that...

i'm totally fine with. Hooking up with him has been taking away my stress from school.

Ever since spring break was over, things at school have been full of drama. Everyone looks at me like a monster because of what i did to Mars. Ever since i punched her, she has been telling everyone i beat her up for no reason. Calling me crazy, making other people call me crazy.

People at my school for some reason love to make lies about me. Now people whenever they get the chance, they call me names or do stupid sht to me.

Erica does whatever she can to embarrass me, and Justin....Justin avoids me, but his friends do everything they can to irritate the sht out of me. No one knows the full reason why i broke up with Justin, they still only think i cheated on Justin with Ethan. and of course, everyone is on Justin's side. So people also bully me because of that.

Justin apparently hasn't told anyone what he has done, that doesn't help. I try to tell people the real story of everything. But no one believes me. They love to believe in what they think.

Ethan sticks up for me at school, that only helps me a little. I barely have any classes with him so he barely sticks up for me.

So i'm alone at school mostly. Grayson is at school with me too, but he never talks to me there. He ignores me a lot. But we usually hook up after school at his house, which again, takes away all my stress.

Ethan still doesn't know anything about our relationship, but we've almost gotten caught by Ethan so many times. I've jumped out a window one time so Ethan wouldn't see me with Grayson.

Speaking of the twins, their Youtube channel is thriving more than ever. Almost every comment is about tour and how hot the twins are. Sometimes they allow me to record there videos, which make me more closer to them. which is cool, because i love being around Ethan. He makes me in a better mood.

It's been almost a month of hook ups with Grayson and drama at school. So yea. I've decided to start a journal, but i will probably won't write much in it...because i will probably forget i ever wrote this.

Anyways...sincerely, Olivia Danes

i closed my journal as i stood up from my bed. My dad just bought me this journal. Speaking of my dad, he has been acting weird and so has my mom.

They keep acting strange around me, like they're hiding something from me. I hate the feeling of not knowing. I want to ask them what they're hiding, but i'm afraid of the answers they're going to give me.

my phone vibrated as i hid the journal underneath my bed. I looked down at my phone, Grayson texted me

Grayson

Grayson: Bored, want to come over ;)

Me: Omw

i smiled at my phone as i turned it off. i walked out of my room, towards the keys to the car. As i grabbed the keys i looked towards the living room. My mom sat on the couch staring blankly at the t.v