Remember// C.H

19) Shades of Calum

~Brooklyn

My head now rests on Calum's lap as he plays with my hair.

"Hey, can I tell you something?" I asked

"Yeah, sure" he answered.

I turned my body so now my face, was facing the ceiling.

"Well, my name is Brooklyn Emery Decker, I'm 17, and I wasn't born in Australia, I was born in America, hence the American accent. I lived with my mom for a while, and my dad was never in my life. I don't even know his name, and never have I ever seen a picture of him. I lived in America for 16 years, until I moved back here this year. This is my first official year in Australia, and I live by myself in a flat, that my mom owns. I like watching the moon, and the stars and contemplating life. I also like scary movies, even though I'm terrified of them. Oh, and my birthday is August 11th"

I look at Calum, and he smiled at me.

"Brooklyn Emery Decker?" He questioned. "That's cute"

I roll my eyes, and smile.

"What?" I ask him.

"Nothing, I just thought it would be like Adelaide or Rose, or something. You know like a flower" he chuckled.

"You thought my middle name would be like a flower?" I questioned

"Yeah- wait. Now that I think of it no, because of your personality. If you were to remind of a flower, I would say a black Rose" he smiled.

"Cal, a black rose means death" I said to him.

"That's the point" he smirks.

"Ass-hole" I joke, turning the opposite way.

"I'm just kidding love, chill" He said planting a soft kiss on my lips.

I blush. "Hey, how's Michael, and Ashton?"

"They're fine, kind of pissed at you though" he said.

I furrowed my brows in disbelief.

"What why?"

"I told them about how I liked you, and they were all exited about me possibly getting a girlfriend" he said. "And then, the thing between you and I happened, and I was devastated. So yeah."

"Oh" I said plainly. "But, what do you mean when you said possibly getting a girlfriend?"

He let out a dispirited sigh.

"A year ago, there was this girl. Her name was Quinn Arlo, and we were dating. I fell in love with her, and everything just seemed like a dream. But that dream suddenly turned into a nightmare, and things turned bad. She started to cheat on me, and she told me what she did, and I took her back. Then she started to take drugs, and she cheated on me again. When things got really bad, I told her I couldn't be with her anymore. She was now doing drugs heavily, and when everyone tried to help her she denied them. So one day I was switching back and forth on the t.v. and her face was on the television. She committed suicide by jumping off a bridge, and I knew I could of helped her, but I didn't. So now, I feel like it's partially my fault"

I sit in shock at Calum's words.

"It's not your fault Calum. You were there for her when she was at her best, and her downfall. Don't blame yourself because you did the right thing"

He half smiles. "That's why I took it to heart when you were gone Brooklyn. I missed you, and felt like everything was my fault because you left. And that's why the guy's were so excited about me having a relationship with someone"

I can only feel bad. Even though Calum and I are on good terms, I still feel like complete shit.

I sit up, and rest my chin on my knee. Tears well up in my eyes, but I repeatedly tell myself not to cry.

I instantly turn my head so Calum doesn't know I'm crying.

I've fucked up, and this will always haunt me.

"You okay?" He questioned.

"Yeah, just an emotional story" I said bring my hands to my eyes, and wiping the tears that were rolling down my face.

"Awe, C'mere love" He said pulling my body towards him, and giving me a huge embrace.

"Don't worry about it okay? Everything's alright now" he said kissing my head.

"Thank you." I say. "For everything"

"No problem?" He said, it sounding more like a question.

Calum's body smelled of Old Spice deodorant that was pretty pleasant. So I wanted to just stay like this all day.

"Hey" he said to me.

"Yeah?" I pulled away from the hug and looked at him.

"Everything in time okay?" He asked.

"Everything in time" I repeated as he placed a kiss on my lips.

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