Remember// C.H

32) Sorries and Apologies

~Brooklyn

"Brooklyn" Calum says, as we still lay out on the top of his roof.

"Hmm?" I question, as my fingers trace circles into his chest.

"I'm sorry" He looks up at the sky.

"Why are you apologizing when you've done nothing wrong?"

"I-I just feel that I haven't been good to you. I mean, I just feel really bad" He said silently. "I just feel like you're miles away"

"I don't want to you to feel that way Calum"

"But I do, and I can't help it" He said silently.

"I'm sorry" I said.

"Why are you always apologizing for things that you didn't do?"

"I just, do. There's no explanation behind it." I paused. "I just feel if I say sorry, things will be resolved faster, and anyways... Most things are my fault"

Calum wrapped his arms around my waist, placing a kiss to my forehead.

"Everything you say sorry for isn't always your fault"

"But I feel like it is..." I stopped talking.

"You know" Calum said changing the subject. "I wish we were like we used to be"

"I know what you mean" I stated. "I just wish... Never mind"

"What?" He questioned.

"Never mind" I said again

"Are you sure? Because you can tell me anything"

"Yes, Calum. It's nothing, I swear" I looked away from him.

I slowly closed my eyes, cuddling into Calum more.

"Brooklyn, what's with you and Luke?" He said softly.

"What do you mean?" I asked nervously.

"You guys just seem closer than usual, I thought you weren't talking to each other yeah?"

"No, Luke is just Bipolar" I laughed with Calum.

Calum's hands traveled down my back, and down to my waist.

"But, are you Okay?" I ask Calum.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, Are you happy?" I question him.

He sighs. "I'm working on it." He paused. "Brooklyn, it's hard.."

"I know, Cal." I said. "You'll get there"

I smiled at him, as he smiled back.

"I just want you to be okay, you know? Not having to worry about anything, or regret something"

"It's hard" he repeated again. "I'm trying"

"It's not your fault" I reassure him. "You did everything you could and-"

"I don't want to talk about it right now Brooklyn."

"Okay," I say quietly closing my eyes.

"I'm sorry I'm not happy" He says.

"I'm sorry I can't make you happy" I say quietly.

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• Wow, this was a really short but depressing chapter. But they aren't fighting! The next chapter will be long.

• So sorry I've been MIA, I start school tomorrow, and I've been trying to finish summer reading, and I forgot the password to this account a couple days back! And just remembered it. Thank Jesus.

• I may have to change Brooklyn's last name, because I didn't know there was a model named 'Brooklyn Decker' haha. So I might do that, idk.

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