DONTMAKEMEFALLINLOVE || Billy Hargrove, Stranger Things

XXII.

Bricks were being slammed against my head the minute I woke up. Or so it had felt like it. Sitting up from the bed, I didn't know how I landed here last nig–

Last night.

"Fuck!" I cuss, almost throwing the pillow against the wall.

"Can you please shut up? Some of us are trying to sleep." His voice comes from behind me as I finally notice his presence on the other side of the bed.

"BillyImSorry."

"What?" He groans with the back of his arm covering his eyes.

"Please don't make me say it again,"

"I won't, I know how much it could hurt your ego," he says so venomously so early in the morning.

He has a point but he cares about his ego just as much I care about mine.

"Well maybe if you just knew what you want then maybe we wouldn't be in this situation," I sneer. And I immediately regret it. I've said the wrong thing for the millionth time already.

It's not his fault at all. Not even close.

"Don't be blaming your mistakes on me, sweetheart, you're the one fucking up." He snaps back at me.

Even though it is my fault I'm tired of the bickering back and forth. "Look Billy, I'm sorry. You're the one who drove us here just so I could get away from the bullshit but I guess I am the bullshit I can't get away from and I brought you in it. I'm ready to end this, I want something in my life to be good. I don't want you to hate me like the rest, and if that means us having no communication at all anymore then so be it–"

"Are you kidding me? Diana Henderson, I want to be with you." That made my heart stop.

I'm at loss at words. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I'm sure he hasn't ever wanted to feel this way. His tolerance really is shocking, even when it comes to me. Yet I can't deny the fact that I'm falling for him. No one knows him like I do. He's that one thing I didn't know I needed.

"Be my girlfriend," he says behind me before I turn my body around only to have his eyes already staring. "Just us. Only us. I've wanted you for me for a while now."

Rolling my eyes at his way of thinking I'm his possession, I still can't manage to decline. I've gotten myself in too deep again, and I don't feel like I should get out.

So I do the only thing I know he can't say no to either. Scooting my body over to him I lean in and press my lips to his. This was never a possibility of how I could be asked out but there's always a first for everything.

And even though I did enjoy it, I did enjoy him, and I did enjoy California I can't stay here. Ever since we left Hawkins there's always been something tugging at the back of my head, my gut feeling telling me to turn back. And I just can't take it anymore.

I left Dustin just as quick as Will had.

•

Billy was on the verge of his head exploding after he had a tantrum of not staying here longer. Though I understand I could never stay. I even suggested to take a bus but he said that he doesn't want anything happening to me. This isn't my home and who knows what Dustin and Steve are up to. They probably reported me missing for fucks sake.

Steve. Last time I saw him he basically told me to rot in hell.

And maybe I do deserve it.

How could I make this right?

•

Many hours later, in Hawkins, Indiana.

Unlocking the door to the most familiar yet unfamiliar house I grew up in, I'm met by the crash of now scattered glass. There's four figures in my house I can register before I feel a strong strength clasped around my arm, pulling me right back the freezing outside. I stumble across the front yard trying to gain back my composure and as soon as I do I'm met with the pupils of my mother, Hopper, Dustin, and Steve.

I knew something was coming.

I just wasn't expecting to have Steve hurl me across freezing pavement.

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10-3-18; 1:46 am

hello. it's been a long time since I've been typing like this.

most of you probably don't read this story anymore due to the lack of updates. and I'm here to tell you that's okay.

the truth is, I was terrified of opening this app/website again. for over a month. it felt like I was letting you guys down, and I was too scared to know the outcome. therefore I was away for a while.

one day before I disappeared, I just couldn't open the app. afraid of what, I don't know. restless anxiety.

I had huge plans for the story. I still do.

until the next time you see the notification of this book on your phone.

xx.