Poetry

Scared

I feel scared,
Scared of myself,
Scared of what I'll do,
Scared of what I am turning into

Maybe I am hurting you,
Maybe I am a bad person,
Maybe I should be isolating myself,
Maybe I should just go out the way

I don't know what I am anymore,
I'm scared and fearful of what I think I'll do to you,
Just leave me,
Leave me to rot in my own hate

I feel consumed inside myself
like I'm a monster
I'm not ready to be like this
Just give me my childhood back

I have been in this state before
Scared for my life
Knowing I'm not here for anyone
I got out

Yet I'm here again
Here in distressed
Like a flucelent monster
Though I still think I'll get better

I won't get better
I'll get out
Then fall back in
It's just like a loop that's never endin'