WHEN DADDY LEFT

I lied

               Y'vania's POV

"So its true my dad paid you to leave me. I didn't realise you're such a whore."

My palm connects with his right cheek the effect of it echoing through the quiet neighbourhood. When he takes his hand away from his cheek I hit him for the second time and I'm about to do it for the third time when he gets hold of my hand mid air. Still shaking with anger I pry my hand off him.

"How dare you Anthony. You don't even know what you put my family through and you have the audacity to call me a whore? Just tell me who is better? A whore or the son of a murderer?"

He goes quiet putting his hand into his sweatpants pockets. I turn to get back into the house trying my level best not to shed a single tear before him. He holds my hand stopping me and speaks quietly his eyes never leaving mine.

"I'm so sorry babe so many things have happened and I take back whatever I said or did to hurt you. Am sorry for losing my temper but I trust you Brownie bae I love you so much. Please let's give it another try I promise I won't hurt you. Let's forget about the past and start afresh."

He lets go off my hand slowly as if unsure of what he's doing.

I know he's right I know none of this is his fault but how am I going to accept this?

"I'm not sure if I really want this heck I don't even know what love is everything is so twisted Anthony I can't think straight right now. I'm afraid my heart won't give you a chance."

"I'll wait for you love I don't care how many years it will take I'll never fall for anyone else."

"Leave." I mutter coldly not staring at him. He stares at me as if doing that will change my mind.

"I told you to leave Anthony." I say it louder this time and turn my back going back inside the house. He stands there for a moment then slowly walks away.

As soon as I close the door behind me I scream loudly letting out the anger I've been bottling inside.

After a minute of smashing things around and turning the living room into a mess I feel someone's arms holding me tightly. I realise its Javier when he tells me to calm down and starts stroking my hair. Still breathing heavily I lean in and close my eyes finding a way to calm my raging breath down.

"What's happening here?" Mummy asks surprised. I take the glass of water from Daniel and sit down gulping it in less that a minute.

"I didn't realise you're that thirsty." Daniel says with a smirk caressing my cheek with his fingers.

"What part of my question didn't you understand Y'vania?"
"Mummy," I start with a tired sigh feeling the usual pain in my tummy that came as a result of the surgery. Clutching my lower abdomen I lay down on the couch closing my eyes and taking deep calming breaths before going on.

"Nothing is wrong with me mummy just a few things which I already handled."
"But why?"

"Mummy you may seek for answers but you really won't like them when you get them. I promise I'll take care of myself just go home and don't worry about me after all am not  suffering am okay."

The thing is me and mummy have never been so close. All my life I fought my battles on my own and after daddy's death I had no one else to confide in. I grew up being an independent kid and I wasn't her first priority. Up to now am not and that's why I find it hard to tell mummy everything that am going through. I know she's trying very hard to close the wide gap that stands between us but she has to understand its not that easy.

"Y'vania I understand you're grown up and I know we've never been so close but please don't shut yourself out that much. I love you all of us need you. Let's go home Y'vania,away from all this drama." She sits on the couch and cradles my head on her lap.

That was my abuela's message. That I should take the next semester off and go home,stay away from the drama but again that's where all this Miller and O'Connell's drama started and now that each day of my life is featured by the media whether I want it or not they get to know wherever I go.

"Why do you want me to come with you mummy and don't say its because abuela misses me."

"I want us to go home because everyone misses you and its home honey its always the best."

"But I don't want to leave my friends." I start complaining.
"But your sisters miss you even more and guess what there's a surprise for you when we reach."
"What surprise Nisha lost twenty pounds of her weight?"

She chuckles and says,
"It won't be a surprise when I tell you."

I get up and stare at her. I know she's being all loving and sweet because she wants me to go home and most likely put me into the Italian council of my  uncles and aunts who will start questioning me and telling me stuff that I know won't help me.

All I want is peace and Anthony. Yes I did kick him out a couple minutes ago but I realised that I miss him so much the moment I set my eyes on him. All the memories came back flooding and I know that I lied that my heart can't give him a chance but I lied. I still love him.