WHEN DADDY LEFT

Good at goodbyes

Y'vania's POV

I learnt something today; that at some point in life you have to learn to let go of the people and things you love the most.

It's such an obvious thing. I should've learned I don't know why I am so dumb sometimes.

I'm seated in one of the posh malls in town(very sad of course) helping my friends with their shopping. Everyone is about to leave for college.

I don't know why they had to move out of town.
But that was the plan. Going to New York together.
Shut up smart mouth Y'vania.

So everyone has chosen to move to New York. My letter came through. New York University. A private institution worth millions of money.

Who was I lying to?

I promised that I'd join them as soon as I get done with treatment but I know its a lie. By the time I get done with this, my family will be totally bankrupt. That and the fact that I am not a hundred percent sure that I'll be Aplastic anaemia free. I don't want to cause them problems by being the sick friend on campus.

My friends and I have a big difference in social classes but I don't hang out with them for their money and I've never taken advantage of their wealth.
What I learnt is that life has to move on, dreams have to be achieved and their parents have to be proud of them at some point in life. They have to live their lives too.
Yes I feel bad that we are going to be away from each other and they also feel the same but everyone has their life to live.

The thing is I have to let go of them and live my life.

But how can I live my life when someone is keeping tabs on me? Someone I really wish I could love but I can't. Someone I wish could give me and my family a break.
When is this person going to give up on me?

You know this is all your fault.
No it's my mouth's fault.

It said something it didn't have to say, a grave secret. Anyway it had to be out someday I mean you can't just poison someone with their kid as a witness then 'erase' the kid's memory(which will obviously come back to normal with time) then expect it to be a grave secret.
That's what it is. That's the answer to her 'how much do you remember' question.
My memory is back to normal and of course with a sarcastic tone. She can't do a thing, Javier my manager filed a restraining order.( wink wink)

"Oh little Faith we meet again I hope you'll give me the answers I need this time. I really hate your innocent face you know?"
"Feeling is mutual Lizzy."
I stopped calling her Nana because I want to piss her off and see what she's capable of.

"My question is still the same. How much do you remember from the past?"
"I came here to shop not to answer your silly questions."
She mutters something I don't get to hear when Jake appears and comes towards us holding loads of shopping bags and smiling at me.
"Time to go I guess. Where are the others?"
I ask completely ignoring my granny who stands there for while then walks away.

"Some old women have one brain cell and no manners at all."

"What did she do to you?"
"Who?"
I ask back wondering when I'll stop thinking out loud.
"Your granny. I see you guys talk a lot these days. What are you planning?"

"Fight a lot. That's what we do. She's forcing me to say something I can't and I don't know what she's planning but I know it's something horrible."

He drops his bags on the chair I was sitting on and runs a hand through his hair clenching his teeth angrily.

"Jeeesh calm down down dude she's not going to kill me."
"What? You know how she is. The thing is why can't she leave the four of you alone and let you be just like it was before?"