When we first met . . .

Chapter 47🥀 - flashback part 4

~ Flashback ~

We get to my dad's house, I manage to not cry by putting happy songs, he is still there. My dad. When we walk in both Maya and I say hi and we go straight to the guest room.

"Oh my god. What is this place? It's huge." Maya says. "Yeah I know," I say. I look at my phone. I have to see if he called. He hasn't. "What is it?" Maya asks noticing something is wrong with me.

"Nothing." I shake my head and put my phone in my pocket. "Let's go eat," I say.

After we put our bags on the bed, we both go to the kitchen and we make ourselves some pasta. I thought about going out and eating something at a restaurant but Maya said she'd rather staid in tonight. And I agreed.

My dad left just when the pasta was ready so it's just Maya and me at the house. I call Alex to tell her I'm staying with Maya at my dad's so I won't stay that night back at the dorm.

"Yeah ok." She says and she hangs up before I can tell her I took her car.

After we ate Maya picked a movie and we started watching, We've decided on 'The Millers'.

I watched that movie like 300 times, but ok. I don't care I love that movie. Always makes me smile.

Somewhere in the middle of the movie, I lost track and my mind drifted back to Shawn. I can't take it anymore and I go to the bathroom trying to call Shawn again. but he isn't answering.

Not letting my tears to come out, I wash my face as if it will heal my broken heart and walk back out of the bathroom back to the couch. When the movie ended Maya wanted to watch another one, I didn't argue. It's not like we had anything better to do.

"I need to tell you something," I say the moment we finish the second movie. I have to talk to someone about it. Maybe she'll understand and she'll let me go over to him.

"Ok.... is everything ok?" She asks. Turning the TV off.

"Yeah- I just" my phone vibrates. I take it out of my pocket, thank god! Shawn is calling. "Excuse me," I say and I run to the bathroom.

"Hello?" I answer hope blooming in my chest. "Hi," He says. "I'm done with the photo shoot. Just got back, Can you come over to the hotel for an hour? I think we need to talk. You don't have to stay the night. But I really think we should talk about this" he says. He's right. Screw Maya, she can handle herself for an hour.

"Yeah. Of course. I'm on my way." I say. "Cool," He says "See you in a bit," I tell him and he hangs up.

I watch myself in the mirror, I can do this. We will get through this. I walk out of the bathroom, "You ok?" Maya asks me as I sit down next to her.

"Is it ok if I'll go for like an hour? There is this something I really have to do." I say. "Oh, isn't weird if I'll stay here by myself? Can I come with you?" She asks.

"Uh...." No. She definitely cannot come with me. "I don't think you can come, no. But I'll be back in an hour. I promise. I have to go, ok? Just watch another movie and I'll be back before you notice" I say. Taking the keys running to the car before she can answer me.

I ut the hotel's address in the GPS system and I start driving. It takes me less than 10 minutes to get there. I had no my dad's house was so close. I shiver. 'my dad's place' that just sounds weird. I get out of the car straight into the elevator and walk my way to his room knocking on the door.

He opens the door defiantly not his cheery happy self, he looks... depressed? Maybe? I look at him, he looks broken. He's right hand, holding a glass filled with something that smells strong. My nose wrinkles at the smell.

"Hi" I exhale.

"Hey, come in," He says and he moves his head to the room in a way that says come in. He takes a sip and I walk in. He closes the door after me.

This Shawn looks different than the Shawn I know. I walk into the familiar room, sitting on the chair in the kitchen area and he sits next to me.

"Did you talk to your ex? Garry, right?" He says. He sounds so cold. Not showing any emotions I've never seen Shawn like that before.

"It's Darren. And no. I didn't talk to him yet. I thought we should talk first before I go talking to him."

"I'm sorry I got so angry and I said we should break up. I didn't mean that. I just don't know what to do in this situation."

"I know. It's confusing. I thought I should go talk to my ex and ask him what he wants to do next." I say.

He shifts in the chair before responding. "So, if he says he wants to raise the baby with you. Are you going to leave me and go raise a freaking baby with him?" He asks raising his voice. He is clearly hurt but this is not why I came here, for him to yell at me.

"I don't know." Tears are filling my eyes.

He stares at me. "If that's a possibility than I think we shouldn't be together and maybe I was right for saying we should break up." He says not even looking in my eyes. He gulps the rest of his drink before getting up to fill his cup. Is he serious?

"What? Shawn listen to me! I have no idea what I am supposed to do. What if this other girl was pregnant with your baby wouldn't you want to know? Don't you think you deserve that?" I ask.

"Look I need to pack and to get ready for my flight tomorrow. So can you just go, please? Let's end this now before things get ugly." He says. How can he act so cold, showing no emotions whatsoever? He called me. Begged me to come and now he is just throwing me out?

"Are you serious? This is hard for me, What the fuck do you want me to do huh? I have a fucking baby inside me, This isn't only hard for you. You are not the one who needs to decide what to do now. You called me here to talk to me. So fucking man up and talk to me about this and don't push me away." I'm practically screaming.

"Can you please leave?" his voice is low, calm even.

"Is that what you really want?" I ask. He can't even look at me. "Look me in the eyes and tell me you want to end this. Look at me and tell me we are done" I stare at his back.

He finally turns around looking at me. I don't want this to end. I think things are in a very weird situation right now but I surely don't want to break up.  "I don't know what you want me to do," I whisper.

He just stares. "We're done," He says drinking the whole glass of whatever the hell he was drinking and he walks towards the door opening it for me waiting for me to leave.

What the actual fuck?

I storm out of his room. What an asshole.