When we first met . . .

Chapter 55🥀

I wake up due to my alarm, It's 5 a.m.

I groan, not sure I want to go. I'm having second thoughts. What if I get there and we will fight and he will get all cold and a dick as he was the night before he left?

What if he will be so sweet, I would want to go straight back to his arms? This is just so confusing and I'm scared of what might happen. How am I supposed to act at a party? I feel so out of place even just thinking about attending. This isn't my life. It will never be.

Unless you date Shawn... A little voice inside me sang and I want to punch myself knowing that the voice is saying the truth.

The flight to NYC is departing at 9 a.m. I have 1 hour to make sure all my stuff is packed and to say goodbye to everyone before I go.

I'm making this sound so dramatic. This is only a few days. A quick trip to New York. I'm just so nervous I really don't know what to do.

I wake up Maya Rachel and Alex and they help me finish packing. It's now 6 and we go to the shop to drink some coffee together before hey drive me to the airport

"Are you excited?" Alex asks.

Isn't obvious? "Of course I am."

"He literally asked you to come to visit him in NEW YORK. I don't care what you guys fought for, He is totally smitten with you." Rachel says. I laugh at that.

"Are you ok?" Maya asks. The only one out of my friends, knowing exactly what happened. She looks like she really cares for me. "I am. Just nervous."

We finish drinking our coffees and they all drive me to the airport at 6. I didn't get to say goodbye to Ben or Jeremy, I think they are still sleeping. Alex tried to call them a few times but they didn't answer. I don't dwell on it too much because I know I'll be back in a few days and everything will go back to the way it was.

"We'll miss you," Maya says. "I'll miss you too. I'll be back In a few days don't worry" I say. They all together give me a big hug, they let me go and I walk into the airport.

I really can't believe I'm doing this, flying to a different country... missing classes... It's just for a few days, this could go either way. Or super good. Or super bad.

After all the security checks and everything, I go to Starbucks and I just sit there having about 40 minutes to spend. But there are about 10 minutes before boarding starts. So, it's not really 40 minutes. just drink my second coffee of the day waiting for the time to pass.

My phone vibrates and I smile seeing his name jump on my screen. He sent me a text.

- "Have a safe flight. See you in a few hours" -

I remember when he used to just send me cute things like this. He is really the sweetest.

- "Thanks, already at the airport. 10 minutes till boarding " -

He isn't answering. What would he answer to that anyway? I'm about to close my phone and gather my stuff to go wait in line when he FaceTime's me. I answer without thinking twice.

"Hi," I say putting my headphones. "Hi... how are you?" He asks his cheeks are all red.

He looks amazing. He is on a bed or a couch, with a yellow tight shirt, that makes me want to jump all over him. Just seeing him... makes my heart tingle. I haven't seen him for a while and now we are FaceTiming. I feel happy with my decision to go to New York. I really do miss him. no matter how much I try to deny it.

"I'm good. I'm really excited to-"

I hear a scream from behind me, stopping me in the middle of the sentence. I turn around in shock not understanding what happened.