When we first met . . .

Chapter 67🥀

"What?" My voice is breaking and I literally feel my heart breaking with every breath I take.

"They kissed?" I ask. Trying to hold myself together. "Yeah, I saw it, and when I came to talk to him about it. to tell him it was wrong we got into this fight and... well you can see" he says pointing to his face. I'm looking at him and he does look a little bruised.

"Please tell me this a joke," I say trying my best to hold myself from bursting into tears. I know I can't compete with fucking Camila Cabello. She is amazing, she is gorgeous, so freaking talented. and she now kissed him.

"I'm sorry," Justin says. "It looks like you could use something to drink. I'll be right back" he says going to the bar. I can't hold myself anymore. Tears stream down my cheeks as Justin comes back after a few seconds with a whole bottle of Vodka.

"Here, looks like you need it," He says handing me the bottle. I look at him, I hesitate for a second before taking the bottle out of his hand and drinking from it.

I hand it back to him and he drinks from it too.

To be honest from this moment this party became really fun. Justin and I got close... never thought something like that would ever happen to me, and I don't want to even see Shawn right now. We just danced, Justin and I, and had fun, more and more people joined us and it was so fun, I felt free. Frisky.

Suddenly I started feeling this weird feeling, everything is dark, and I can't see, my head hurts, I hear voices.. a lot of voices, the music is blurry and I can't recognize who is talking to me.

I feel weird. The lights came back, and I'm still dancing with Justin, no more people talking, only loud music, and Before I know it, Justin's lips are on mine and we are kissing.

Oh

My

God

I am kissing Justin Bieber. This is fucking crazy. Everyone is looking at us as I take a step back.

What the fuck just happened? Has Justin Bieber just kissed me right now?

"DUDE, WHAT THE FUCK?" I hear Shawn screaming. I look around and I see him coming over with Camila. Of course. I roll my eyes.

He punches Justin in the face. That was unexpected. What the hell? Justin falls to the floor.

"Come on Lili were out of here," Shawn says holding my hand. "No. Let me go" I push his hands off me, bending over to help Justin get up. "Are you ok?" I ask Justin.

"Lili What the fuck?" Shawn looks really mad. "Don't ever talk to me again" I yell. This was a fucking mistake. Coming here to New York. Shawn is out of his mind, I bend over and I help Justin get up and I walk outside with him.

"Are you ok?" I ask him as we go outside and sit down.

"I'm so sorry." He says.

"What are you talking about? You seriously have nothing to be sorry about. He is such a dick for-"

"Shawn didn't kiss Camila." He says.

"What?" Did he just-

"I just told you that so I could get close to you and kiss you," He says. I stare at him, I want to punch him in the face. "I wanted to get back at him." Is he for real? Is he serious?

"What the fuck? Oh my god. I need to go find Shawn" I say running back inside with tears in my eyes looking for Shawn. "Hey, have you seen Shawn?" I ask. "Have you seen Shawn?" they all shake their heads. I can't believe Justin did that to me.

"He just left," Ariana says. "Oh my god" I run outside and I don't see the limo. I call a cab and I go to the hotel.

I'm going to Shawn's room knocking on the door. Until he opens it. Over and over again.

"What?" He opens the door with an ice bag on his face only with shorts on.

"Oh my god...." I start crying. I see all his bruises. Justin got him hard. All over his body, you can see punches. Holy shit.

"I'm so sorry," I say crying.

"Lili, What the fuck happened to you at that party? You completely humiliated me in front of everyone. You can't do shit like that. I have a reputation I need to maintain, Andrew is going to fucking kill me" He sighs.

"Justin told me you and Camila kissed.. and I got crazy jealous. He tried to make me feel better by bringing some drinks and he kissed me"

FUCK.

"I didn't kiss Camila," Shawn says not even slightly hurt by my accusation.

"I know that. But whatever happened between you and Justin made him say that to me so he could kiss me, to get back at you for something I don't know." I say. "I'm so sorry. I never meant for this to happen" I say holding my heart.

I look at him, he looks wrecked, to be honest. He looks defeated.

"It's fine. I know it wasn't your fault. It's just that when you told me to leave you alone... I just- fuck, the way everyone was looking at me? I felt so humiliated. I'm sorry for all this" He says.

"I know I'm s- Wait, what? Why are you apologizing?" Why was he apologizing? " Why are you apologizing? I don't get it. I'm the worst person in this world and you are so pure and amazing-"

"Stop it, I'm not." He says mad.

"Yes, you are," I say taking the bag of ice from him and placing it on his face again. "You are amazing. And I- I love you"