When we first met . . .

Chapter 23🥀

It's Wednesday, 7 p.m. almost 3 weeks have passed since I first met Shawn. 18 days to be accurate. So much has happened in the last couple of weeks.

I studied. Spent some time with my friends. I talked on the phone with Shawn. I studied some more. And now Alex, Rachel and I are sitting on the couch watching TVD, one of our favorite shows.

But I can't help and think about Shawn. He was supposed to come about 2 weeks ago (10 days ) but he couldn't make it he had interviews and whatnot. And then last week he had another few shows but now I don't know how but he has another week off.  And he decided to not go to his family, I don't get it. He said he'll come in tomorrow night. He has only 1 week with me. And then he goes back on tour. Is it weird I feel that I want him to be with his parents and family for this week? Instead of with me? I feel like I'm stealing him away. We don't know each other that well and not for long enough for him to choose me over his family. And with those thoughts in mind, I can't help my excitement that he will be here tomorrow night.

I wish I could go with him on tour. I laugh to myself. That's just not realistic. I'm in college. I can't just stop my life for him. Let's say I went on tour with him. What if we won't work out? I dropped out of college to be with him, and now I'm not with him and not in college. I laugh to myself again. We know each other for a month more or less. I'm thinking about going on tour with him? I shake my head at that thought. Why am I even thinking about this?

"Why are you laughing and acting like a crazy person?" Rachel asks. I laugh again.

"it's nothing, I just thought about something funny," I tell her.

She rolls her eyes at me. "Ok... so are we going out tonight? I heard there is this bar like 10 minutes away... Marco something..." she says.

"Can't. I have planes with Dylan." Alex is fast to say no. I can't say I'm surprised when Dylan's involved.

It looks like they are getting really serious. Again.

I'm happy for her. But I know he is not the one for her. Last time it was just... not right. He treated us, her friends like we were nothing and she always chose him over us... I hope this is a one-time thing and if they'll actually get back together she won't choose him over us all the time.

"I'm down," I say. "I'll call Jeremy and Ben" I add.

"What about Maya?" Rachel asks. Rachel doesn't know about Maya and Darren. I think I don't remember if I told her or not. It just... I still don't feel so comfortable around her, I know I forgave her. But still, it's weird. I'm not sure how to act around her. We are cool now but it will take me some more time to trust him again.

Shawn and I are just two different people I guess. I just need more time.

"Yeah her too," I say.

I call Jeremy: "nope. Can't tonight. Sorry. Maybe tomorrow." Super suspicious.

I call Ben: "Sorry I have planes tonight." I pout.

I call Maya: "Hell yeah. Be there in 30 minutes."

"So I guess it's a girls night," I say as I hang up with Maya. "without me," Alex says.  "it still is a girls' night" Rachel points out. I laugh at the face Alex does.

I put my phone down so we can continue watching our show but before I do so, I get a text and just as I hoped, it's from Shawn.

-          "babe?" -

Did he just call me babe? That's new. I kind of like it.

-          "yes...?" –

I feel my cheeks reddening.