Right in front of me (max and harvey)

Chapter 31

Bexley's POV

A month and a half has gone by since Harvey and I have been together, everything has been better than it's ever been and I love how everything is going. Right now I'm walking to school and I'm really happy because I get to see Harvey and it's just- "Logan!" I exclaim "what are you doing here?"

"Oh, yeah, about that..." he scratches his neck "I sorta moved here. Surprise!"

"You're kidding! No way!" I tell him hugging him and hiding my panic attack with a creepy smile.

"Remember when I told you I would come visit you? Well, here I am"

Yeah, except this isn't just a visit, this is a change that will last for god knows how long. Not that I'm not happy, though.

"It's... amazing!" I say faking excitement "Wow, I don't know what to say"

"I don't think you'll ever understand how happy I am! We'll get to be best friends like in the old days" he tells me squeezing me tighter

Like in the old days... yeah... sure it will

•••

"Oh no. Oh no, no, no, no" I say walking into the restrooms "yikes" I facepalm myself "why, why, why, why, why, Logan? Why?" I take a deep breath "well, it doesn't necessarily have to be bad. No, as a matter fact, it will all be okay while he doesn't do anything to split me and Harvey up"

I get out and go to my first class. And oh surprise, Logan is there. I glance at the ceiling and take a deep breath again. He waves at me and then tells me to sit next to him. As much as I want things to be the way they used to be back when we were kids, I know it'll never be like that again. Different times, different circumstances.

I get close to him and he lets out a nervous laugh "hi" he smiles at me. He's got a really nice smile, not gonna lie.

"Hey" I tell him smiling back weakly

"When am I going to be able to meet your friends?" He asks

"Soon" I reply gulping and trying hard not to look nervous

I remain silent for the rest of the class and then he asks me "are you okay?"

"Yes. Yes. I'm fine"

•••

"I need Hana! Oh shoot" I tell myself. I forgot to mention that I haven't talked to her ever since Harvey and I started dating. As a matter fact, she's been really isolated lately. Max hasn't talked to her either and she doesn't talk to Ava anymore after she heard all that happened.

Now that I think about it, why haven't I talked to her? She's most likely in need of talking to someone and I abandoned her. I hear someone weeping and it sounds like her.

"Hana" I say. She looks at me with tears in her eyes but still looks like she's trying to hide them, which makes me feel terrible because we promised we would be there for one another and it doesn't look that way to me lately.

"Yes?"

"Are you okay?"

"I don't know, do I look okay?" she says in sort of a rude way but I guess I deserve it

"No..."

"Exactly. I am not"

"Um, I am sorry for not being there for you"

"Oh, don't worry, I'm used to it" she states "no one is ever there for me. I don't care about others not being there for me, but it's you we're talking about"

"I'm sorry. But hey, what was that thing you wanted to tell me the other day?" I ask

"Oh, you mean that one time over a month ago? It doesn't matter, it still hurts but I'm okay... by myself. I've always depended so much on others to get through shit, but I'm starting to think that no one being there for me is exactly what I need to be stronger. I think I'll be alone from now on."

"But what ha-"

She cuts me off looking annoyed "my parents got divorced, okay?"

"Ah" I sigh

"And I wanted you to... I don't know, listen to me or something, but no, you were too busy with your own stuff to even give me two seconds of your time"

I give her a hug and then she bursts out in tears "and then, Max breaking up with me... well... it was hard and I needed you and I realized I didn't even have that"

"Aw, Hana, come on. Let's fix this. I won't fail you, I promise I'll not" I tell her

•••

The first week with Logan in the town has been okay, no apparent trouble seems to be anywhere near and I'm actually starting to feel positive about all this. Maybe having him here won't bring bad things with it. It's actually been nice having him around once more. It's not like in the old days and I am not expecting it to be, but it's okay.

"My neighbor is nice, Bex. I thought I wouldn't like it here but so far it isn't that bad. It's actually cool. I spent the afternoon at his house yesterday and we played Fortnite the whole afternoon. I won" Logan tells me

"Well, that's good! I'm glad you like it here"

"Yes, it's pretty great. I have even made some new friends"

"Do I know any of them?"

"I don't know, but I'm actually going to meet one of them after school at the diner, wanna come? You could bring a friend as well"

"Sure, why not?"