BMC & DEH One-Shots and Headcannons

Zolana-Beep Boop (3/3)

Hey guys!! I want to thank everyone for all of the support and love for this!!!

Read the first two parts before!!

TW: angst

I couldn't believe it.

"I'm sorry." The nurse looked at all of us. Connor's streaming tears, Evan's puffy eyes, a sobbing Jared, and me. I felt my heart cave in. I was going inside of a black hole. The only thing I could hear is the heart monitor.

Beep...Boop...

Soon that beeping noise would reduce to one loud beep, which would end everything in my world. I wanted to disappear. I wanted to make a difference. I mean, face it. Would anyone notice if I disappeared tomorrow?

"We can keep her on life support for a little while longer, but I'm afraid it's not going to do any good." The nurse's voice sounded so distant. It echoed in my mind. The voice sounded faded. I couldn't think. I wanted to get out of here, to lave all of this behind me. I wanted to flee to another place, and to never return to this damned hospital.

I looked down at the still-sobbing Jared in my arms.

Who am I? I couldn't leave this. All of my friends matter too much to me. Leaving the group of people around me would explode a grenade that the ring hasn't been pulled off of yet. I am a grenade, awaiting for my ring to be snapped off. Exploding would end everything. But it would also make more damage than what has already been done.

Maybe grenades are best left in the gutter.

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Life without Alana started affecting my life.

My grades started slipping.

My friends became distant.

The things that used to make me laugh didn't phase me one bit.

I would lie awake at night, searching for an answer of why this could ever happen to such a person.

Life was hard. (hArD? Jkjkjk im so sorry)

My hospital visits became more frequent nowadays. I would go over and check on her almost every day. The rest of the gang would sometimes join me. I'd stay until visiting hours were over, and beg for more with her. I never wanted to leave her side.

The world seemed to burn.

I began thinking about her legacy. Her legacy was planting seeds in a garden that most of us will never get to see. Alana's legacy will not be forgotten, nor will it disappear.

The hospital staff was so used to me coming every day for the past three months, that they knew almost everything about me, my family, and who I was visiting. The rest of my friends had come to say their final goodbye to Alana, which I had accompanied for support.

Alana's skin was cracked and pale. The heart monitor yet continued to beep, as the whir of her breathing machine filled the silence.

"Alana?" I asked, hoping to god that she might answer me. "I want to say my goodbye to you. You changed my life. You were the one person who could keep me up all night, laughing at whatever shit we would find funny at 3am. You could make the worst situations into the best memories I could ever ask for. You made a place where nobody would ever have to feel alone. I love you so much. It's driving me nuts that you cannot hear me."

I felt tears come to my eyes. I wiped them.

I needed to start over.

"I've heard it said, that people come into our life, for a reason, bringing something we must learn. And we are led to those who've helped us most to grow if we let them. And we help them in return. Well. I don't know if I believe that's true. But, I know I'm who I am today, because I knew you. Like a comet pulled in orbit, as it passes a sun. Like a stream that meets a boulder, halfway through the woods. Who can say that I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you. I have been changed for good." I reached over to her pale hand, and squeezed it. It was as cold as ice.

The truth began to sink into me.

"It well may be that we will never meet again, in this lifetime, so let me say before we part. So much of me is made of what I've learned from you. You'll b with me like a handprint on my heart. And now whatever way my story ends, I know you have rewritten mine, by being my friend. I truly have been changed for the better. And just to clear the air, I ask forgiveness for the things I've ever done to you. I will never find another friend like you. I wish it was you. I wish it was me, and nothing in between. What happens now wouldn't count anymore. You are the sun in my life. I love you, and wish you the most," I said. I kissed her cold forehead.

I turned to get up, and walk to the door.

I was about to walk out when I heard one of the sweetest voices I've ever heard in my entire life.

"Zoe?"

I turned around, meeting the dark eyes of Alana staring at me.

The end.

I hope all of you liked this mini-series, and I hope that you never have to go through what Alana or Zoe went through.

Happy New Years!!!