Breaking the Madness

Twelve

Anna POV

"How? How am i supposed to trust you Luc?" i asked him desperately. I wanted to trust him, i wanted to believe that he had my best interests at heart. I really did. However, there was just something about the way he loked at me, the way he sized me up as if i was some sort of trophy to be won, that made me shiver deep down into my bones.

I knew one thing for certain, Luc was still yet to earn my trust.

"Fine. I wont ask you to trust me, Petal. All i ask of you, is to give me a chance. Can you do that Anna? Can you do that for me?" Luc replied equally as desperate. We were two desperate people and it showed in the way we spoke to each other.

I was desperate and heartbroken. Jaiden had rejected me, he had called me cruel names and believed my lying sister over me. I had always dreamed of my mate - yet Jaiden was nothing like i had ever wanted. Jaiden made me believe those malignant words that others spoke about me, because of him i believed that i was broken that i was less than everyone else. He made me believe that i deserved what i got, that i deserved to be locked away like a disease. He made me broken, he made me desperate.

i don't know the reason but Luc was just as desperate as i. But it was a different kind of desperate. His was a desperation that was still full of confidence and strength, whereas, mine, well mine was a self hate and doubtful kind of desperation. I wonder what make shim the way he is?

"You're analyzing me arn't you, Petal?"

i looked up at him, he was watching me with this odd look on his face, half pain mixed with fondness.

"How did you know?" i asked him meekly.

The expression left his face and a genuine grin spread over his lips, "You have this look when you're concentrating on something..... its like this." Luc pulled a face that made me laugh.

"Do i really look like that?"

He smiled down at me, placing his hand on my waist, "Mmm... but much prettier."

i could feel the blush spread across my cheeks from his words, the girl inside me was screaming 'OMG he thinks I'm pretty!' I wonder what Kid would say......

Kid? Kid was trying to tell me something about Luc but she left before finishing her sentence.

i took Luc's hand off my waist and and stepped back. Lucs smile fell.

"Anna... i understand that you find it hard to trust."

i looked up at him sharply. I did not have trust issues....or did I?

Luc continued, "But.... i promise i will never let you down. Not the way Your father did when he locked you up, or the way you mother did when she left you on this earth alone. I promise i will never treat you badly or leave you to suffer alone. But most of all i swear with the very essence of my being that i will never do to you what Jaiden did. Please Anna, I know it may be hard for you to understand right now... but you can trust me, with everything, for everything that i do i do for you and what is good for you. Trust me Petal, i wont let you down."

My lips began to quiver. No one had ever said something so... so... i don't know how to explain it, but his words echoed around my head making strange thing happen to my stomach. Maybe i didn't trust him, Maybe Kid had some deep dark secret of his that would blow my mind, maybe this was a mistake that i would regret in times to come. But i didn't care. Luc made me feel normal, he never pointed out my differences, never shunned me because of who i was. I wanted to feel the way he made me feel every second of every day of every year of my life. i wanted to feel whole. He made me feel whole. So, against my better judgment i moved back into his proximity and rested my head against his chest.

He wrapped his arms around me and held me against him.

"Im sorry, Petal," He sighed into my hair, but before i could ask him what he was sorry for my head spun as i was pulled under into a black pit of deafening silence.

i opened my eyes to light shining threw a windows into my eyes. i cautiously looked around the room confused, i was in the estate's infirmary. i tried to sit up but a sharp pain splinted down my spine. The source of my pain came from my neck.

"Shhh don't move," a gentle voice hushed me placing a hand on my shoulder to make me lay back down onto the luscious pillow.

It was jaiden, my eyes focused on his seeing straight through the fake concern to the despair hidden beneath them.

"Jaiden," his name was bitter sweet on my lips.

"Anna," he sighed my name like it was the elixer that kept his heart beating.

He knelt beside me, his eyes speaking the words he couldn't say. He was sorry, not just for the physical pain i was in, he was sorry for rejecting me.

"Forgive me."

Those two words were the words i lived for, that i craved to the very essence of my being. He wanted me back. Those two words spread warmth over my broken heart like sunshine, the only other words i wanted to hear from his lips started with 'I' 'L' 'Y'. No matter what he did, or what he said, I was his.

I was about to tell him that he was forgiven, that i didn't care how much he hurt me, how much pain he put me through. I would always care for him, he was my mate after all. But a shadow flickered over Jaiden's shoulder and Luc appeared.

His face was emotionless as if he was waiting for me to choose, waiting for me to decide.

Jaiden or Luc.

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A/N

Hey!!! two uploads over two days.... im on a role yay!!!

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