Breaking the Madness

Twenty-Seven

Anna POV

I couldn't look at him. Jaiden had just ripped Kim's mates throat out and then he had tried to control her. Couldn't he be a little sympathetic for her?

I mean, I know that Brayden wasn't the best person in the world, but that was him, not Kim. and she deserved a little respect.

"Anna, I'm sorry okay? Just can you please let me take you to safety and get you cleaned up?" Jaiden crouched down beside me gently brushing my hair from my eyes.

I shook my head, keeping his hand away from me, "You're always sorry aren't you Jai? You do mean thing then apologize and expect forgiveness. But it doesn't work that way, you have to try to stop doing and saying cruel things and honestly repent for forgiveness. It's okay if you fail and do bad things but at least try not too."

Stood to my shaking feet and tried to walk away but Jaiden grabbed my arm.

"I'm sorry Anna, not just for being rude to Kim but for all the cruel things I did to you. And when I say sorry, I mean it. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore Anna. I don't know how to protect my pack, I don't know how to find my true mate but most of all I don't know how to be anymore. I'm not a cruel person, honestly I'm not.

I promise you that I do try Anna. I try everyday to be the best person that I could ever be. I try so hard that when I can't reach perfection I just grow tired of trying. Because whats the point in trying if you know you'll never succeed? Tell me Anna? What's the point? Who does it hurt? Only me I think. Only me."

My eyes filled with tears for him. Not really for what he said but for the lonely, Brocken look in his eyes. He was like a small child who had had he dreams crushed and then served to him on a broken platter. His heart was broken and in turn he was breaking mine.

"Anna!" Bens broken cries reached my ears and before I knew what was happening, he had appeared pulling me into his arms sobbing on my chest.

"I didn't know, how could I not know? And now? Nows she's gone....."Ben was inconsolable.

I stroked his hair gently, holding him close, "What's happened? Benji?"

He looked up at me eyes filled with sorrow and despair, "Ellie. The rogues killed her. She was my mate. I just didn't know it. When she died, when they took her from me, I felt it. It was like my soul was being split in two, like someone had gotten a hot iron poker and rammed it through my stomach. Anna, I don't know what to do? How could I not know she was mine?"

My knees bucked as he told me that my sister had died, and we both crashed to the floor in our grief.

I couldn't breath as I clutched Ben to me, I may not have known my sister well but she was still my family.

We stayed like that, both of us broken yet both of us still trying to hold each other together. I guess that what friend are for, to be the glue that hold you together in the hardest of times.

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Today was Ellie's funeral. I stood beside Ben as he clutched my hand so tight that his nails broke the skin on my palm. I didn't mind. He need me today, he needed to hold my hand and see my reassuring smiles.

Today was a sad day. That's the only way that I could explain it. The clouds were grey and so were the hearts of all those who stood in the grave yard watching as Ellie's coffin was lowered into the ground. It wasn't fair that she died, it wasn't fair that she left Ben here alone.

Instead of watching as they lowered my elder sister into the ground to before food for worms, I fixated on the yellow roses that surround the scene of death.

They were beautiful and bright. Like a sea of happiness. It was kind of ironic that they grew in such an unhappy place.

"Annie?" Jen squeaked as she rested her head on my shoulder.

Her eyes were puffy and red, her face stained with tears. Jared had one arm around her, trying to comfort his distraught mate, but he couldn't help the pain that I knew my sister was feeling.

Ellie and Jen were close.

"Why did this happen Annie? Why did she have to leave us? She was our sister, our beautiful big sister," Jens voice was numb, as if she had cried so much she just couldn't anymore.

"I don't know why Jen. I don't know why all the horrible things happen in this world, but if I could fix it I would. I don't like seeing you cry Jen-Jen. I promise that I'll never leave you, well maybe when we are old and grey, but I won't any day soon." I stroked her hair with the hand that wasn't holding Bens.

She smiled at me, "Since when did you get so wise and..... sane?"

I shrugged but something else had caught my attention.

Luc was standing across from me in a black suit. His face was grim, eyes pleading with me.

I sighed, and did the very thing I didn't want to do. I excused myself from Ben and Jen and walked away from the funeral to talk to Luc.

"I-I don't want to talk to you Luc," I told him yet my voice shook giving away my real feelings.

"Please Petal, just let me explain. Actually, I won't explain. I want to apologize to you Petal. I am honestly so so sorry, I was angry at what they did to you, so angry. But I shouldn't have done it, I shouldn't have put you in this position. Please forgive me? Please I beg of you," Luc got don't on his knees holding my hand. Begging.

I did the only thing that I could, I kneeled down in front of him so that we were eye to eye.

"I forgive you Luc," My voice came out as nothing but a whisper and I wasn't sure that he had heard me until he placed his hands on either side of my face.

The breath in my lungs left me as he lent forward slowly, looking me in the eyes, he gently placed his lips against mine in a soft, questioning kiss.
Every thought left my mind except the feel of his lips against mine. For a moment I stayed still, not knowing what I should do until I slowly opened up to him, not just letting him deepen the kiss but letting him into my soul.

I twisted my hands into his soft blonde hair as he wrapped his arms around my waist. Something exploded within me, I was filled with this warmth of a joyous emotion that had been tugging at me ever since l met Luc. But now it was overflowing from my heart.

We came for air, gasping as the silky oxygen filled our lungs. Luc placed his lips to my forehead and the gently placed his forehead against mine.

"I love you Anna. I really love you."

Luc words sunk into my heart and for the second time that evening I was left breathless. 

He loved me? Did I hear him correctly?

How could he live me? Nobody loved me, I was broken, I wasn't good enough for someone to love. I didn't deserve it.

But when I looked up into his eyes I saw that it was true.

Luc loved me.

No.

Luc was in love with me.

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A/N

Yo! sorry that took so long to get up.... Tomorrows my last exam so then I'm done and shall be updating much more often :)
Hope you enjoyed my very short chapter :)

Omg!!!! Luc said the L word!!!! #fangirlingrightnow!! I think I'm in love with Luc..... Shame he's not real :'(

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