Breaking the Madness

Thirty-Four

Anna POV

I couldnt take it anymore. I didnt want to be here, here, where the world despised me for simply existing. i didnt want to live in this world where Jaiden hated we and my family thought of me as less than human.

And if i had to murder my own sister for me to be happy... then i would do it.

I lunged forward raising the sharp blade to my sisters neck. she let out a scream of horror but made no move to get away from its deathly edge.

"Jaiden! Look whats she's doing! She's an animal, charging at me with a knife!" Camilla screeched at Jaiden expecting him to play knight in shining armour.

Jaiden didnt go to help her the way i expected, nor did he side with like i had also expect. No, he simply moved his sorrowful gaze to my tear filled eyes and tried to come closer to me.

"Don't! I'll do it! i swear i will," I threatened my voice shaking and my body trembling.

Jaiden looked at me in pity, "I know you wont do it Anna. You dont want to kill your sister."

His words made me angry. Who was he to know what i was capable of?

" How would you know that? Huh?" I snarled.

"I know because i have looked to the eyes of men and women who want to kill, who i know will mercifully slaughter others. Their eyes are filled with a soulless black that your eyes don't contain. No. Your eyes are filled with fear and despair," Jaiden whispered gently trying to soothe my fear, trying to coax me into stopping what i was doing.

"Petal, don't listen to him. This is what you wanted. You wanted us and this is the only way that can happen," Luc appeared on the other side of the room.

I nodded to him and started to pull the knife across Camilla's neck.

"Noooooo! Annie please. Don't do this. Don't let her win. If you do this you become the monster, not her. If you do this she will never get what she deserves," Jen cried.

I began to tremble violently. I didnt know what i wanted. I didnt know. It was just all too much i couldnt do this.

I wasnt a murderer.

But i wanted to be with Luc, i wanted him to love me like no other had before. I needed him.

But i didnt want to do this.

NO! No. No. By all hell's fiends no. She needed to pay. I needed to be happy just once in all of my life, i needed to be happy. I needed Luc. I needed the hopes and dream that he gave me. I needed this.

"Whatever is telling you to do this Anna dont listen to them. This hateful angry person isnt you Anna. You are kind an innocent and... brave. Dont become weak and cowardly by doing this. You dont need to be defined by the hate that surrounds you." Jaiden told me his eyes genuine and kind he began to slowly move towards me and my resolve broke.

I broke down into a puddle of sorrow on the floor. I couldnt do this. In that moment i felt Luc leave me his cold absence breaking my heart in two and i was alone once more. Sobs shook my body and a wail of pain left my lips.

I didn't know he i was anymore and i was disgusted by this shadow of a human being i had become. I had given Luc everything, my body, my heart and almost my soul, yet he had left me. I was a broken piece of china whose glue no longer worked and had now fallen apart.

"Shh, Anna. You've done the right thing," Jaiden hushed talking the knife from my fingers.

But had I? Who really knows what is right and what is wrong in this god forsaken land? I surely didn't. It seemed that people chose what was right depending on what they wanted.