Kari's Drabbles

How Could This Happen?

 I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how, I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

She wasn't expecting the call. It was late and she was making dinner. They didn't come to the door like they normally would. She picked up the phone when it rang. When they told her, she dropped the phone. She grabbed her shoes, ran out to her car and sped off. They had to be lying. They had to be. Her boy...her precious boy... He was fine, he was going to be alright, he would pull through. When she'd get there she'd prove that they were lying. They had to be.

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No, I can't stand the pain

Tears burn at the back of her eyes as she drives. They find their way down her cheeks, even as she tries to wipe them away. Her mind is racing, thinking about him. The light doesn't seem to change fast enough. She screams at one of the other drivers though they can't hear her. She's so desperate to make sure he's alright. To make sure she'll be able to see him.

How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run, the night goes on
As I'm fading away, I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream, how could this happen to me?

Where did she go wrong? When she encouraged him to leave? When she told him nothing would happen? It was what he had wanted, so how could she have stopped him?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge, I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

The weather is bad. Winter had come long ago, icing over the roads. Her car swerves a bit, but she regains control. She must get there. No matter what. She must get to the hospital. Snow sticks to her windshield as she tries to her destination. The wipers push it off, going in a distinct rhythm back and forth. Her tears have stopped, but that doesn't mean they won't come back. She knows she needs to focus on the road. Push the thoughts out of her mind. But she can't. He is the only thing on her mind.

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

Memories form in her mind. Ones that she holds dear. Ones she knows only he and she share. She thinks of the newest memories they were supposed to make. Will they even be made now?

How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run, the night goes on
As I'm fading away, I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream, how could this happen to me?

She makes it to the hospital and runs in to the front desk. "Where is he?" she asks. "Who?" the receptionist asks. "Alex Jiscofsky." she says. "He's in surgery. You'll have to wait." the receptionists says. She pounds on the desk, demanding to see him. The receptionist won't give into her demands, but tells her to calm down. How can she calm down when she knows he's hurt!?

I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run, the night goes on
As I'm fading away, I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream, how could this happen to me?
How could this happen to me?
How could this happen to me?

They tell her that he didn't make it. She feels the tears at the back of her eyes again. She screams and kicks and throws a fit as security leads her to the door. People stare at the "deranged" woman screaming and fighting security. She tries to get away and run to the surgery room, but they won't let her. Finally she gives up, just falling to her knees. The tears won't stop now as she hides her face in her hands. He's gone. He's gone and there's nothing she can do about it. Someone comes over an kneels next to her. She looks up to see a man in a uniform just like his. He tells her it will be alright. She looks away. How could it be alright when the only person she cared about just died?
"What's Alex's relation to you?" the soldier asks.
"....the father to my child...."