Kari's Drabbles

The Best Dreams

  What did I dream last night? Let me tell you....

Sitting in darkness all alone, I hear a soft voice, calling my name. "Who's there?" I ask. No one answers. I appear to be in the middle of a crowd. I try to ask people what's going on. I'm ignored. Someone bumps into me. "Geez, watch where you're walking. Wierdo." the voice is very recognizable. I look up to see my best friend. I stare at her. "...Allie?" I ask. "How do you know my name?" she asks irritably. "How do I know your name? I'm your best friend!" I say.
My BFF stares at me as if I'm nuts, then walks away. "Allie! Where're you going!?" I call out, but she's lost in the crowd. Next time I turn around, I see all my friends and family going by me. All the familiar faces go by in a flash. They don't even stop. They don't even seem to notice me. I'm like a faded face in the crowd.
"No. Wh-what's going on?" I start to panic. I end up being run into again, and fall to the ground. My friend Amanda looks down at me blankly, then continued walking. Why....why am I not noticed? I stay on the ground, as the commotion around me slows. The scene fades away. Now I'm in darkness again, knees to my chest, my hands holding my head to my knees.
"Why so down?" some one asks. I look up to see....myself. As a little kid, holding my favorite blanket. "...I...I don't know anymore." I say. "If you don't know, then why are you sad?" the child me asks. I blink in confusion. "Mommy always says, that if you're sad, you should think of what you love most. If that doesn't cheer you up, the best alternative is to laugh it off. Mommy's really smart." the kid me smiled.
"Yeah, she always did say that..." I mutter. "Thanks kiddo." I smile a little, but when I look up, kid me is gone. I stand up and look around. Something grabs at my foot. When I look down, I'm being absorbed into the darkness, like quicksand. I try to free myself, but it doesn't work. My foot is stuck. Then all of a sudden, everything is upside down. The blood rushes to my head. Faces cross my vision. Allie, mom, Amanda, Alyssa, Ashley, Brenten, Dylan...all the people I hold dear.
They're gone in a flash. "No! Lemme go! Get me outta here!" I cry. "So...that's what you want? Death?" someone says. I look through tears, to see myself again, at the age I am now. I'm all in black, and even my make-up is black. My hair is dyed black as well. "Who...who're you?" I ask. "You. The side you never let out. The side that yearns for a better tomorrow. The side that never sees the light in things. The side that waits in silence for death to come." the other me says.
I look at the dark me in terror. I can see where she/me/whoever has slit her wrists, quite a few times. "No..." I murmur. The other me raises a knife. She comes toward me with it. I shriek and shield my face, as I'm doused in red...

What did I dream? I dreamed the best dream I ever could.